Rockstarsammi's Journals

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Why do i feel like this? why do i feel so incomplete.... why do i feel like letting go.. and meeting eternal sleep? why do i feel like i have no hope. or something to believe. nothing brings me joy. love doesnt want me. no one wants me. i don't want me. i have no idea who i am. as everything i do is to try to be like someone else. or fit to something someone else wants. or to make other people like me. i cant do anything for me. unless i end this endlessly.

Where should I have my party at?

Big parties have to be planned in advance.. I pretty much have the band that i want, locked in to play my party... So now it's on to the venue and setting a date..

I'm going to go look at rooms at Afterlife Night Club(the whole club would be around 7k to rent out.. but you can rent the out one of it's four rooms, for not even a fraction of the cost)

The Aqua Room at Afterlife... It's light blue with a water theme.. and it's got these cool upper balconies to dance on... (it's a HUGE room.. i just couldn't find any pix of the whole thing)

The Rock Room at Afterlife... It's got a very hellish/goth type of theme... DieAnUh was at Afterlife for her homecoming, and she said apparently they have beds & cages in that room now.. haha.. I didn't believe her, until the guy who rents out the club was telling me this, as if it was some huge plus of a selling point, when I called him to enquire about prices.

Hi Lob at The Sanctuary... This is a private house.. which you might rec from US Weekly when Britney & KFed stayed there in '04... Tommy Lee and a slew of other people have stayed in it.. It's got two bedrooms, a huge guest house, a pool, and a really neat deck.. It's the highest house on the north side of Camelback Mountain. The house is built into the mountain.. and srsly has one of the best views of Scottsdale.

The Gallery at The Sanctuary... another private house at the Sanctuary resort... this house has 4 bedrooms and a pool... it's also up in the mountain, though not nearly as high up as the other.. I'm not sure who has stayed here.. but i really like the mod theme.

Pros & Cons:
Night Club - Pros: it's a big space... the band can play as loud as they want. Cons: I'd only have it from 7 to Midnight..
Private Houses- Pros: Theres a 2 night minimum.. So my pAArty could last an entire weekend. Pool party one night, rock show the next.. And I could put floating candles in the pool.. not to mention you get full usage of the hotel, room service, amazing city view, etc. Cons: The band would have to play acoustic because there is a noise ordinance in Paradise Valley.

So where would you have it?

party planning..

My 20th birthday isn't until February, but i'm already planning my party.. I never had a super sweet 16, or a big 18th party... so I've decided I want a huge blow out party for 20.
I'm trying to narrow down a night club to throw the party at. I'm wanting one with more of a punk or goth vibe, so I pretty much have it narrowed down to two night clubs in old town Scottsdale.
Then there's the entertainment. I've always wanted a band to play at a party.. So I'm currently in talks with the booking agent of a band that i like, over prices and availability over them playing my party.
I was also thinking it would be fun to have like fortune tellers or something for all the party guest... and maybe like henna tattoos or something..
As far as food goes, I'm definitely wanting to have sushi...

any ideas or suggestions?

my birthday isn't for 106 days.. but it's better to plan ahead... plus reserving night clubs and metalish bands, is best done several months in advance..

Vampire Make Up And Other Stories..

Hey BBz,

My skate comp over the weekend went great.. I had fun competing against and getting to skate with other girls for once. There was so much girl power there.. haha.. And honestly the girls division totally pwned the 11-13, 6-10 male, and male masters divisions (i left after our division was over, because it was too hot out... 100º in october).

I kind of took a mellow day on Sunday, though I did check out the new Barney's NYC store that opened here last week (major let down) and ate at Fred's (the restaurant inside Barneys... which was very meh).. and then yesterday I went shopping(got tons of cute stuff). Today I pretty much slept the whole day and then when skating for a bit tonight..

I've decided not to go to CKY's Halloween show in West Chester. I'm hella bummed.. and now i've been hit with the dilemma of what to do for Halloween. The only 18+ night club party, is a "pimp's and hoes" ball (um yeah so not my scene)... I might go to 944's Halloween Party at the Princess Hotel in NoSco, but 944 parties are kind of meh except for the fact they usually have good performers(like 50 Cent at the 944 Super Bowl thing); but i don't think they have anyone preforming for Halloween as the tickets are only like $200 & you get a hotel room w/ that. The hotel party I really want to go to is the Haunted Hotel at the Valley Ho, but it's a 21+ party.

Aside from not knowing what to go to.. i'm not sure how i should do my makeup.. I was just googling Vampire Makeup.. here are some possibilities..

high fashion zombie style....

dark & dead

red lipped..

suggestions?!?!? i'm going makeup shopping on friday...

so tell me.. What are you all going as for Halloween?

xoxo,

Samantha..

Survey Time. haha

I stole this survey from RavenJune.. haha.

What was the last concert you attended?
Lacuna Coil & All That Remains, last night

How many people were there?
about 1000

What bands have you seen in concert the most, and how many times?
Fall Out Boy ( 8 )
Vain's Of Jenna (4.. and i'm seeing them at least one more time this year, pos two)
The Academy Is (4 bc they've opened for people)
Cobra Starship (4 bc they've opened for people)

Do you have any setlists? From what bands?
HIM, The Used, CKY (the first two of their shows i went to Matt gave me set lists), MEST, Goldfinger, The Killers,

Are there any CDs in close proximity to you? Which ones?
no.. but i have the record versions of "Razorblade Romance" and "Infinity On High" above my bed.

How many states/provinces have you been to concerts in?
az, cali, nyc

What bands did you see live in the month of May?
may.. no bands.. but i did meet Rob Dyrdek...

What CD are you addicted to at the moment?
none really.

What is one band that you used to like, but now you can’t stand?
uummm.. Bobby Light.. "Lights Out" sucks so much..

What band are you in the mood to see live right this second?
HIM!!!

Have you ever been on a tour bus?
tons of times.. heck I was on Lacuna Coil's bus this afternoon.

Have you ever partied with a band?
not exactly.. but i once had dinner at Hooters with Jess Margera and Matt Deis from CKY.... i was so much more interesting when i was 17. srsly.

Have you ever been on anyones guest list? Whose?
yesss for press... to name a few: My Chemical Romance, 69 Eyes, CKY, Mindless Self Indulgence, Lacuna Coil, Quiet Drive, Fall Of Troy, Avril Lavigne, Envy On The Coast, Avenged Sevenfold, Meg & Dia...

Last band person that you got a picture with?
Mouse from Lacuna Coil

How old were you when you went to your first concert?
technically 6, for Tony Bennett.. but i fell asleep.. i usually count my first concert as Backstreet Boys when I was 11

Are you wearing a band t-shirt right now?
no.

What band do you own the most merch of?
err.. i guess I still have a lot of HIM stuff from '05

What song is on your MySpace right now?
like 10

Have you ever met that band?
some of them

Do you ever do anything crazy at shows?
yes. well not anymore

What are your favorite venues to go to shows at?
marquee, clubhouse, venue of scottsdale

What band do you have the most performance pictures of?
revolution mother.. i really love those.

Would you ever get a tattoo representing a band?
i have the lyrics to a HIM song and a heartagram (though the heartagram was more for my bam fandom and i got it when i was 16), so yes apparently i would.

How many concerts do you average a year?
20.. this year probably more like 30.

Upcoming shows?
Stray Light Run & Anarbor (though i might go to TaintStick instead that day), Vain's Of Jenna, CKY (i might not go to this now though), Gwar, From First To Last, The Used...

List every band you’ve ever seen live:
No.. because i've seen around 100 or so bands live...

List every band [member] you’ve ever met:
this would take days to list.

Top 5 Songs That Make Me Feel Like I Can Take On The World

It is currently 4am... And I thought I'd make a list of 5 songs that make me feel as if i can conquer anything. Maybe you'll feel inspired too.

Finger Prints By Katy Perry

"it's my life and i'm sitting on the sidelines watching it pass me by...."

"Most Girls "By Pink

"But Im not every girl, And I dont need that world to validate me"

"Live Your Life" by Rihanna & T.I.

"So keep on getting your paper, And keep on climbin, Look In The Mirror, And Keep On Shining"

"The Taste Of Ink" by The Used (this song means so much to me as it and it's music video are so close to how my teens have been)

"It's four o' clock in the fucking morning"

"Touch The Sky" By Kanye

"Til the day I die, Imma touch the sky..."

Xoxo,

Rockstar Samantha

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Good Evening (or whatever time it is by you... as it's actually midnight here) Everyone,

I'm laying here in bed feeling a bit stressed out. I'm interviewing/photographing Lacuna Coil and QuietDrive tomorrow, at TWO DIFFERENT CONCERTS!! I'm going to be going back and forth... I'm hoping I'll have a chance to check out The Higher(i love them!) and All That Remains( not a fan but i do have one of their cd's.. but i only bought it because it's the one that Matt played on before he left atr for cky) as well tomorrow.. But probably not depending on what times Lacuna and QD play, plus the re-entry policies(usually a press pass gives you the right to come and go).
I still have to finish writing up questions.. So let me know if you want me to ask Lacuna Coil or QuietDrive anything!!! You can always AIM your questions to me at ICriedNLuvSaidNo ...

Today I pretty much relaxed. Though i've been hit with a dilemma, in the fact that Shawna can't go to WC with me, so I don't know what I'm going to do about my scheduled interview with CKY on the 30th. I really don't want to have to cancel. AHH.. I have so many interviews/photo passes scheduled, aside from tomorrow.. I've got Anarbor and Stray Light Run on the 24th, CKY on the 30th, Drive A on Nov 9th, From First To Last on Nov 10th, and Gwar Nov 14th! Send me questions!!!

I'm really bummed out.. I just saw Lady Gaga's tour date listing on FaceBook, she'd not playing phoenix! I might just have to go to her Los Angeles or NYC shows instead.

OH BIG NEWS!!!! RockstarBaby.net and WeDontBuyYourMerch.com are merging. It will now be RockstarBaby.net: We Don't Buy Your Merch... Kayla (the owner of WDBYM) and I agreed RSB's URL should be kept as the main one, as it's been around longer. It's going to be more of a Online Magazine format. All of the videos in the Youtube Channel are being re-edited, and the web site's new layout is going to be amazing. The full relaunch should be at the end of the month.

Moving on... I'm still really nervous for my skate competition on saturday. I'll probably film my run and stuff for one of my little projects I'm working on.

If I have to cancel my one out of state interview.... I am srsly going on a huge spending spree at the brand new Barney's New York store thats opening here in Scottsdale this week. I've really not bought much clothing this year.. It's time to splurge...

Hrrmm what else is going in my life right now... My 20th birthday isn't until February, BUT I'm already planning the party. I'm looking into local night clubs to rent, and I've already started looking into booking a band to play the party.. I'm thinking a "death(metal) to my teens" theme. haha.

XOXO,
you know you love me.. Rockstar Samantha

ps: pick me out a new temporary user name thingie to replace Viva La Sam(antha)

pps: my subject line means "good evening" in Finnish.

This week I'm interviewing: Fall Of Troy, Quiet Drive, Framing Hanley, and Lacuna Coil..

This week is jammed packed for RockstarBaby.net of interviews & photo passes... I'm interviewing & photographing Fall Of Troy (tuesday), Framing Hanley (wednesday), Quiet Drive (thursday) and Lacuna Coil (thursday).. yes thats right, i'm covering TWO concerts in one night(thankfully the venues are about 15 minutes from each other.. but still). It's going to be a crazy week.. not to mention I'm skating in a skateboard competition next saturday.
If you have any questions for me to ask any of the bands post them here! Be sure to state your name, age, location...

We also have been confirmed to interview Stray Light Run (oct 24th), CKY (oct 30th), Drive A (nov 9th), From First To Last (nov 10th), and Gwar (Nov 14th)...

Btw RSB is in talks to of doing a merger with another popular Arizona based band interview web site..

the road to self improvement...

I've decided recently to take charge of everything thats bugging me in my life.

be it my messy room, or the few pounds i've been meaning to loose, or the skate tricks i've been meaning to learn, or bands i've wanted to interview.

I'm on a path to making my life better

I'm in the process of getting my room in order (i need more closet space. I seriously have enough clothing to cloth a third world nation. haha).. And in November I plan to do some renovations to it.. I'm going to add actual wallpaper (http://designerwallcoverings.com/WallpaperStore/index.php?main_page=product_info&products_id=384) & wood to the chair rail (right now it's just a paint on illusion)...and i'm going to tile the counter in my bathroom.

I've been working out, counting calories, and got rid of sweets from the diet. I'm almost exactly where I want to be weight wise..it's mainly my legs that have been bugging me..as i've always pretty much had a flat stomach.

I've been practicing skating a lot lately.. mostly street. but this weekend I just started back in the park, after about a year away from park skating. god i missed the vert ramps.. I'm skating in this big locals only skate competition next month.

I've been getting RSB back in order.. Slowly.. My photo gallery is almost completely fixed... I still need to send out more press queries for the fall. But tonight I'm photographing/interviewing The Ataris.

I guess my biggest problem with anything, has always been staying focused. Or on the right path... So i've decided i'm going to go get a tattoo today of a line from "The Path" by HIM, to always remind me to stay on my path... "I see through the darkness, my way back home, the journey seems endless but i'll cary on, the shadows will rise, and they will falls, and our night drowns in dawn"

xoxo,

Samantha

RockstarBaby.net Is Interviewing The Ataris Next Week!

I'm interviewing The Ataris next tuesday when they play Scottsdale!

Feel free to submit any questions you'd like me to ask them during the interview!

xoxo,