I'm Samantha and I love to skate. I also like to shake things up a bit

 

This is an exact copy of my Xmas list email i sent to both my parents.

 

HOME DECOR & APPLIANCES

 

Damask Wall Paper: http://designerwallcoverings.com/WallpaperStore/index.php?main_page=product_info&products_id=384

(i need 3 sheets to do my whole chair rail)

 

Decorative Wall Mounted Armor   http://www.skymall.com/shopping/detail.htm?pid=102981354&c=

 

Suit Of Armor http://www.skymall.com/shopping/detail.htm?pid=102719324&c=   or mini suit of armor: http://www.skymall.com/shopping/detail.htm?pid=102763431&c=69753851&v=

 

Decorative Phone http://www.skymall.com/shopping/detail.htm?pid=13206252&c=

 

SIDE Cabnet thingie (i could put my tv on this.. i want to get rid of the ikea stuff) http://www.skymall.com/shopping/detail.htm?pid=69754612&c=

 

Mid Evil Chair http://www.skymall.com/shopping/detail.htm?pid=69754556&c=

 

Book Case http://www.skymall.com/shopping/detail.htm?pid=102763436&c=

 

Throne chair http://www.skymall.com/shopping/detail.htm?pid=102763433&c=10464&v=

 

HP Mirror: http://www.skymall.com/shopping/detail.htm?pid=69667339&c=69781301

 

HP CrystalBall http://www.skymall.com/shopping/detail.htm?pid=102473433&c=69781301

 

Decorative Harry Potter Cup thingie http://www.skymall.com/shopping/detail.htm?pid=69753890&c=69781301

 

Decorative Griffindoor Sword http://www.skymall.com/shopping/detail.htm?pid=102525227&c=69781301

 

A Juke Box  http://www.realjukeboxesdirect.com/

 

Talking Fall Out Boy Plush Dolls

 

A Mini Fridge

 

Sirius XM Radio Life Time Subscription

 

A Hummer H2

 

Hidden Cameras: http://www.skymall.com/shopping/detail.htm?pid=102827767&c=10250

 

 

 

SKATEBOARDING EQUIPTMENT

COMPLETE SKATEBOARD:

DECK: Element Bam "Bampire" deck (if not then the Bam Animalism II DECK)

TRUCKS: Silver Rob Dyrdek Trucks

BEARINGS: Bones Ceramics... (if not then Speed Metal Wrecking Balls or Bones Swiss)

WHEELS: Element Wheels 52mm or smaller 

GRIP: Bam bat grip (like what I had on the Three Beast Series board)

(all items can be found on CCS.com or Store.BamMargera.com)

 

a grip tape file

 

vintage Bam decks for my wall.. please run these by me before bidding on anything on ebay, because they can be fakes(i of corse can identify a fake easily).

 

ELECTRONICS/DVDS/VIDEO GAMES

 

30 GIG itouch or an iPhone

 

A Google G Phone (the newest one) or a SideKick LX

 

iHome iPod dock w/ speakers

 

Tony Hawk's Ride for PS3

 

Skate 2 for PS3

 

Skate IT for PS3

 

"Interview With A Vampire" on DVD

 

"Almost Famous" on DVD

 

"CKY: Landspeed" on DVD

 

"CKY2k" on DVD (DO NOT BUY THE REMIX VERSION)

 

"Love Metal Archives Vol. 1" DVD

 

"Jackass Lost Tapes" dvd (and while you're at it.. I'd like the Boxset and the movies again)

 

Buffy The Vampire Slayer(tv show)on dvd

 

"(500) Days Of Summer" dvd

 

"Minghags" dvd

 

"Fantasy Factory Season 1" dvd

 

"Gossip Girl Season 2" dvd

 

a video camera

 

studio time

 

MAKEUP & BEAUTY:

I want more of the Kat Von D Sephora Makeup.. I'd Like:

The Ludwig Eye Shadow Palette

The Beetoven Eye Shadow Palette

The Metal Orchestra Palette

The True Love Palette (like what I have now)

The Lip Stick 3 Pack(like what i have now)

The Lip Gloss 4 Pack (like what I have now)

More Trooper & Skater colored Tattoo Liners

Bam, Party Animal, and Marge Lip Gloss

Backstage Bambi, Underaged Red, Rosary, and Misfit lip stick

The make up brush set

 

Perfume.. either Britney Spears Fantasy or Kat Von D Sinner

 

Hair extensions

 

CLOTHES

note I take a SMALL in all tops/hoodies.. men's shoes: size 8 womens 9.5... pants it depends on the brand,but usually a 4.

FROM ELEMENT

Shasta Dress

Parisian Skirt

Tuberose Skirt in grey w/ black splotches

Heartless Jeans

Brigitte Jeans

Universal Pants

Nolita Pants

Harp Pants

Britstol Pants

Everly Shorts

Toby Shorts

Composer Shorts

Benita button up shirt

Lola Button up shirt

Bahamas button up shirt

Rachel shirt

Portofino 2 shirt in both color ways(really cute)

Amelia Sweater

Santorini sweater

Lizette hoodie

Crossroads shirt (in blue and purple)

Deseo shirt

Fiaco shirt

Tart hat

Margaret hat

Tulah hat

Madgestry hat

Kelso hat

Dempsy purse

All can be found on ElementSkateboards.com

 

ROXY:

Rosilyn Destroy Jeans

Whitney Jeans

Sunrise Surf Beach Pant

Salsa Lesson Yoga PAnts

A List Tanktop

Magdalena Top

I Heart Sports top

Sunshine top

Hipster shorts

Hot Competition fitted shorts

Hot Issue Dress in black

Hippie Cover Up Dress

Signature Burn Out tee

Beach Party Sweater

Free Fall Beanie

So There beanie

Our Nature Tote Bag

all of which can be found on Roxy.com

 

DC:

Womans Bali Sweat Pants

Dots tee

Since Tee

Cancun Dress

Lois Shorts

Aurther Shorts

Spooky Shorts

Jacob Skirt

Pioneer Camisol

Survivor Tank

Silence Tank

DC Areotech sneakers

Rob Dyrdek Collection RD1 MID Shoes (i like both color ways.. the blue & white are really pretty though)

Rob Dyrdek Collection Take Six Hoodie

Rob Dyrdek Collection Cache Hoodie

mens smith 2.0 skate shoes in black

mens pure plaza skate shoe in black

mens core skate fitz shoe

mens park wc skate shoe

mens match skate shoe

womans Manteca 2 Mid SE black/purple

womanses chase shoe

all of which can be found on store.dcshoes.com

 

MISC

Lady Gaga tickets for Radio City

 

 

 

Hey everyone...

It's been a while since I've blogged..I've been busy... College is hectic.. RSB is hectic.. Party Planning is coming along(two months), and thankfully I don't start on the schedule for my seasonal job at Urban Outfitters until next week.

This past Saturday was so jammed packed.. I went to a GRO (GirlsRiders.org) clinic out in Union Hills, it was really fun and i learned some really basic stuff that I'd never learned during my 5 years of skate(::cough learning how to fall in knee pads cough::).. I really suggest, if you've ever wanted to try skateboarding seeing when GRO will be in your area, their clinics are totally free(they operate on donations) and they even provide boards, helmets, and pads for you to borrow during the clinic.  Silly from Silly Girl Designs (a girl oriented skate company) was there too, she's a really genuinely nice person who loves the sport.
After the GRO clinic, most of us headed over to The Battle For El Mirage skate competition at the brand new Skate Plaza(the first one in Arizona... btw Skate Plaza's, which i think is a term rob dyrdek coined, are skate parks for strictly street skating. no vert) out in El Mirage(El Mirage is so fricken far from Scottsdale.. I'd never even been out there before)... It was really fun.. A girl i know named Natalie came in first place.
Then saturday night I went and interviewed Oderus Urungus and photographed Gwar...I thought I would be able to avoid being sprayed with the alien blood and gook.. But noo.. When I was up there with my photo pass i took a direct hit. blah.

Sunday morning I spent 4 hours doing orientation and training at Urban.. I was so tired I ended up sleeping all afternoon.

Yesterday I spent a good portion of the day at the skate park.. I also did today. After learning how to fall in knee pads and not hurt yourself on vert  ramps, I'm over my fear of heights with skating.. Like in the past I'll drop in, but nothing higher than 3 feet on concrete..(i've done 6 foot drops, but on skatelite/wood).. But now, I'm dropping in bowls like no big deal.   It's still a little nerve wracking because you're staring down 6 feet into what is made to look like an empty pool, and it seems to effing insane.. but then you just slam your board down and before you know it your at the bottom coming up the other wall kick turning and back.
I've also been more daring on the mini ramps.. I've got tail stalls down.. and i'm working on doing front side 180 ollies off of the coping(in layman's terms getting air off a mini halfpipe).
I must admit though I don't think my new found fearlessness is all due to learning to fall. Last week, prior to that, I skated down the club house(where the fitness center and community pools etc in my gated community are) at like 10 at night and went up on the second story balcony(not unusual for me to do).. and then i got the idea that it would be fun to jump off of it into the pool. so i took off my shoes, climbed over the railing onto a veranda, and i was srsly going to jump off of it into the pool, but then a car drove by.. and i was afraid they'd see.. So i ended up not doing it... but yeah.. i'm going to just blame all this on my watching bam margera dvd's..

I'm going to be moving to New York City!

 

(picture from google images.... gish it makes me so sad to see the twin towers.. apparently i was there more than once when i was little bc my dad worked there.. the the only time i remember was when my parents took me there after seeing Cirque Du Soleil in Battery Park when I was like 5.... and i remember looking up and not being able to see the top of it because it was so massive.. i remember a toy train in the lobby.. and being in the thingie that connected the two buildings.. i really wish that memory was clearer)  ANYWAYS...My dad is getting a place(he moved back there in May to do engineering consulting on the freedom tower, but he's been living out in NJ) on the Upper West Side by Central Park (one of the nicest parts of NYC)... so i'm going to be going back and forth between Scottsdale and NYC.. though it just dawned on me if I want to go back and forth a lot i'm going to have to fly coach..  My dad will be moving in to his new place(he still hasn't fully decided on which building.. he's got it narrowed to like three places) next month...  But I probably won't come see him until January, because I want to fly in for the Lady Gaga concert at Radio City.. but I won't stay long because i have to be back in AZ for my birthday the first weekend in February...

Which brings me to my party planning.. A little over two months left... I've decided I'm going to do a house at The Sanctuary for sure.. I already sent out Save The Dates to some of the people I'm inviting just to get some estimates on how many people are coming... I'm still torn between two houses, because the one has a better view and Britney Spears, Tommy Lee and BEP have stayed in it.. BUT the other is a lot bigger(6 bedrooms), has a jacuzzi(they both have private pools), a private tennis court(to skate on), and a much better backyard in general.. plus it's not as high up the mountain, so less chances of anyone falling down a ravine(the britney house is the highest house on the Paradise Valley side of Camelback Mtn).....I'm pretty much like 80% sure I'm having Vains Of Jenna play at the party(their booking agent just needs to go over prices and make sure they're avail that weekend), though I'm still looking into other bands.  I'm also looking into psychic readers(they all seem to have the same hourly rate... so it's more picking who seems like they'd be more fun), and karaoke rentals and maybe like henna tattoos.... should be fun.  I still haven't picked a theme.. I don't think i'll set one until I confirm what band is playing.

In other things I need to go X-mas shopping and get Diana a birthday present....... For Xmas I'm getting my parents & grandma Snuggies.. I'll prob get my dad something for his new place at Urban.. I'll prob get my mom a HIM calendar(lol she likes them almost as much as i do) and these wool slipper things they always have at Urban around x-mas which i usually buy her a pair each year and then 50 or Benji manages to chew them to shreds... and then I'll prob get my grandma something for her dog........  I won't post on here what I'm getting Diana as she is a buzznet user.. LOL i was going to get her a Cradle Of Filth "Guilded Cunt" t-shirt(lol one of my favorite memories from 2007.. and no neither of us is into COF) but they're only sold on UK sites. :*(   

XOXO,

          Samantha

Why do i feel like this? why do i feel so incomplete.... why do i feel like letting go.. and meeting eternal sleep? why do i feel like i have no hope. or something to believe. nothing brings me joy.  love doesnt want me. no one wants me. i don't want me. i have no idea who i am. as everything i do is to try to be like someone else. or fit to something someone else wants.  or to make other people like me.  i cant do anything for me. unless i end this endlessly.