I'm Samantha and I love to skate. I also like to shake things up a bit

I never watched that show when it was on... back in the 90's, when i was a kid, the commercials for it used to scare me... But this winter i started watching re-runs of it at like 3am on the Sci-Fi channel, and i love ittttt.. but i hate being up that late at night.. so i just started downloading season 1 on Itunes the other day.... now i'm like uber addicted..(though i hate both of the movies.. the new one was such a let down)
anyone else love the X-files?

So.. I was watching MTV this morning, and.... Dear MTV,
I "love" the supposide expert coaches, you have on your show MADE. I especially love the supposide female pro-skater that i've never heard of, that you have in your recent "make me a skater girl" episode. I love her awesome skate stances, such a squating while going straight, which 99.9% of people do standing up, unless they're getting in stance to preform a trick...I also love how she is so down with the correct skate lingo. When you roll off a ramp, that is NOT a drop in. Dropping in is a specific motion you do on the edge of coping, not when you roll down an incline, as she seems to think. Also there is no such place as the "Kettering Skate Plaza", it's called the "DC/Rob Dyrdek Skate Plaza". And contrary to your supposide female pro-skaters beliefs there is no where to practice dropping in at the DC/Dyrdek skate plaza, as it is a (the worlds first, and is famous for this) strictly STREET skate park... Dropping in is not a part of street skating, nor are there any ramps with coping or vert aspects to that park.
It's nice to see MTV being super authentic, and having competent people teach unathletic teens dangerous sports. I especially enjoyed the part where the female pro-skater said she didn't want to see the girl cry unless she broke a bone. It was also lovely to see the girl skating in short shorts, and crying when she skinned herself.
And lastly... Thanks for reeling me in to watching this show by showing clips of actual competent and qualified pro-skaters at the begining of the show.

thus ends my rant.. on how "lovely" MTV shows are...
Best Wishes,
-Sammi

ps: I wrote that rant half way throught the show... after writing it, there was a part where the "female pro-skater" started screaming abusively at the girl about how she wasn't trying hard enough. 0____0 the poor girl could barely stand on a board, let alone was not in the position to be learning trick..It's so irresponsible as it is extremely easy to get extremely hurt skating. I ended up not watching the whole episode, it was so irritating... the only non-offensive part of the episode was the like two seconds of Rob Dyrdek giving the girl props for trying to learn to skate... Though the fact that they had to show one of the most over exposed, over commercialised, and somewhat overrated(though he is amazing), skaters is really annoying.... Why couldn't the girl be getting words of wisdom from Paul Rodreigez or Terry Kennedy.. But no, she has to get them from someone famous for owning a minature horse on a tv show. X_x Oh and at the end of the show, the girl went to skate at the Boom Boom Huck Jam (i didn't watch that part).. but real swift.. You have the girl learning in the worlds only STREET park, and then you go send her to a VERT demo.... real great, as they're totally different techniques.


MTV seriously angers me.... lmfao though prior to MADE coming on, this reality dating show was on, and the chick on it used to be my manager when i worked at Hollister for a week last year. 0__________________0 twas wierd.

This isn't a recent though..Nor does it directly have anything to do with Tiger Beat...and will more than likely be miss interpreted; like a lot of things I say.


Have you ever found yourself watching someone from a hundred feet away. Their back turned to you. No clue you exist. It's times like these you realize your real place in the world. How insignificant and truely only self important you are. But mostly you realize how stupid you are. To put people on pedestals, just for their image. You'll feel stupid anytime you open iPhoto, and see the twenty-nine blurry photos of the back of their head. I am far to old for idol worship. I have retired. One day you grow up and really truely realize, that these people are no better or any more interesting than you. They don't desserve your adoration or attention.
i've. grown. up.

Do we all play a game?
put on a happy face?
tell everyone we're having a good time?
do we all do what's expected of us?
even if that is not playing by the rules?
to fit the part that people ask of us?
am i the only person who's only fun that comes from going to a party, is just sitting back sober and watching what everyone else is doing?
is that all i do? sit back and watch.
watch as everyone lives their life.
my mom says its unhealthy to be out until 4am... like everyone here seems to do, and i've only done maybe 3 times.
But i have to ask in response, "i have insomnia, is it anymore healthier being up at 4am watching rob & big dvds?".
is their honestly any point in being a "good" person, when there is no happiness in it?
i just want to feel a part of something.
something bigger than me.
or just fit in with everyone else my age.
but i feel so alone.
so isolated.
some(most)times i feel as if i'm going to be alone forever.
watching other people live.
and maybe thats better.
alone.

my skater friends.... i always take them for granted.. and rarely do anything with them outside of skating.. but with my skate park peeps, i have a huge group of people who i've known since i was 15.. and in Scottsdale, knowing someone and staying friends with them, is a LONG time, let alone 3 years.
so anyway. yeah AJ IM'd me late this afternoon and was like "come to the skate park".. so i took a shower (at like 6 something pm), and left my house around 7.. i skated from my house to the skate park..which is pretty far.. and i couldn't catch a bus.. so it took me about 45 mins to get there. and i was pretty effing scared because once i got past old town the streets became very dark and i had to pass a mental hospital....i've never skated there after dark. haha.. The Wedge is located in the most dangerous part of Scottsdale; people have been kniffed and held at gun point there.. haha...
Anyway... I got to the Wedge around 8pm.. i went and got dinner accross the street with AJ and two other kids from the park... On the way to dinner, AJ and I discussed the fact that he thinks i'm going to become famous.. And we decided that when i become famous, and buy 3 layers of heaven, he's and some other skate park peeps are gonna come crash there and if i want ice cream at 3am, he'll get up and get it for me. "lmfao. haha scarily enough, i could so see that happening.
After dinner, AJ was doing like skate boot camp with me... and got me to nailing backside smith grinds perfectly.lol.. So now i've got my 50/50's, Back Smith's, and Axel Stalls down on the mini ramp.
AJ was gonna teach me feebles, but the lights at the park turned out, which meant it was 10:30, which is closing time.. and no one wants to mess with the Scottsdale PD.. they will arrest yo ass for skating... well at least in civic center they will, and seriously who wants to mess with the 5-0?

until next time.. or something

xoxo,
Samantha

last night i went skating, i saw brando and aj, who i've been skating with since i was 15. It was good to see them, cuz i hadn't seen AJ since April, and I probably haven't seen Brando since last summer. I missed those kids.
The "pigs" and parks & rec peeps, were out in full force. On cars and bikes. It's kind of unsettling.
When i got home I watched "The Rocky Horror Picture Show". It was better than I remembered it being, but it's still wierd as fuck

i feel kind of good this morning. or afternoon. I woke up half and hour ago and ate a cresant. i've been watching mtv jamz. i forgot how awesome and how many good songs Jay-Z has. They're playing Biggie Smalls right now(he was actually pretty good), it's kind freaky cuz his cd was called "ready to die", what was up with him and 2pac predicting their deaths? anyway.... god i love 90's rap. i seriously DO NOT like rap in general. I just like 90's rap, and about 3 current artists. Late 90's rap videos seem to have the best pool parties; they looks like so much fun.

I've been singing again. I'm meeting with my old singing teachers soon. I need 3 accapella songs for something.. suggestions? i'm thinking of singing "friday i'm in love" by the cure.

hahaha the house from "rob & big" is up for rent. i wish i had $6000 grand a month. i. want. that. house. haha. i swear if i ever make a lot of money i'm gonna buy that house.... or at least a modern style house in the hollywood knolls/hills.... i llloooovvvvveeeee modern architecture.

i feel so bored. i don't really have a whole lot to do on a daily basis right now, because i can't find a job, and my dad gave my mom my allowance for her to control(WTF i'm 18) while he's out of the country.. so i have absolutely no money to go to the mall and spend.

i'm done, imma shut up now.