I'm Samantha and I love to skate. I also like to shake things up a bit

still feeling like shit.
i hate the flu.
i did absolutely nothing today... except go with my mom to a skin apointment.  get in & out burger for lunch while listening to the jason ellis show (i am seriously addicted.. someone needs to get me a portable sirius radio thingie for x-mas, so i don't have to sit in the car)...watch shrek 3..and go to the grocery store to buy dinner.

Jesse called me while i was watching Shrek... she wanted to hang out, but i said no because i'm sick.  She told me Chelsea was in the hospital. As soon as i got off the phone with Jesse, i called Chelsea....  She's been in the hospital since yesterday, and should get out tomorrow.. She went to the doctor because she was sick, they checked her blood, and found out her sugar levels were at 400 (normal people have 100), so she's diabetic.. according to what Jesse told me, if you reach 600 you go into a coma... so thank god Chelsea went to the doctor..   I feel really bad.. i hope Chelsea will be ok.. She's one of my best friends, and i'd feel horrible if something bad happened. loosing taylor and my pug, was waaayy too much for one year.  i may go visit chelsea tomorrow, if my mom will drive me, since i probably shouldn't go into work with the flu.

i have the full blown flu.. it sucks. i feel horrible.. and i always feel worse when my mom's smoking.. and she was smoking a LOT today out of stress.... when i was blowing my nose earlier some of the snot came out black because of it. ciggarette smoke fucking burns my throat and nose when i'm sick... 0_0
i feel like i might have pnumonia, because my chest feels heavy and such..

due to my sickness.. i didn't go to hip-hop today. i'm screwed, grade wise. BUT i did go skateboarding. It was cold out today.. and I was obviously running a feaver, because no matter how long i paused for, i couldn't feel the cold air.. and i was wearing short sleaves.. my skating was really off and sketchy today.... and there was a police officer lurking arond the park.. he kept hassling kids.. this one guy was smoking, and the officer asked to see his I.D., he didn't believe he was 18, even though he was infact 18. p.i.g.s.

i went to Sidewalk Surfer and got a DVD about Steve Rocco, the dude who started World Industries, it was pretty interesting.. i also got two free DVD's, one of them was a DC Aussie tour dvd, i forget what the other was.


Dude, did anyone else catch 50 Cent on CRIBS tonight? holy shit.. he seriously has to have had the most pimped out crib ever.. the decore was fucking ugly.. but wow.. a 51,000+ square foot house(thats the size of a hotel) on 7 acres..with a night club, a strip club, an indoor basket ball court, an outdoor basket ball court, an indoor pool, an outdoor pool, a movie theater, 6 kitchens, 19 beds rooms, a coy pond, 3 ferarri's a recording studio, a Gucci wallpapered billiards room, and an elevator.... 50's Crib made Meriah Carey's place look small, and made Pete Wentz's house look like the poor house.
i.
wish.
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had.
50's.
bank.
account.

ehh i don't know where i left off in my life.. but i'm to lazy to fill you all in. haha.

My dad flew in Wensday night for Thanks Giving.. it was nice to see him, i guess.... thanks giving was boring. my dad hogged the TV, insisting that he got to watch the football games, even though he was a guest in our house, and my mom and I both wanted to watch the "Ghost Hunters" marathon.....so i was watching "Rob & Big" on my computer, out of boredom.. and my dad commented that "Rob & Big" are trash and need to get real jobs (WTF?), and then he proceeded to tell me that it bothered and concerned him that i enjoy watching that show(WTF?)..........we had company that came over at 6pm.. and we didn't end up eating until 7.... i think the highlight of my thanks giving was skating with my friend in the garage.

the day after thanks giving, i had an on call for work, which they had told me would be a definate, so i'd cleared EVERYTHING for friday... i call up at 9am, they don't need me. So... I went and looked at Mini Horses in North Scottsdale. The mini horses were REALLY cute... but they were a lot bigger than Mini Horse from mtv... none of them were small enough to be house pets.. there was a black one, though, that was REALLY REALLY cute.. my mom and i both liked him... but i really want to look around more before getting one.. i'd prefer to get a smaller one.
i must admit after going and looking at mini's in person (i don't think i'd seen a mini horse in person in atleast 8 years), i'm not so set on wanting one.lol.

Saturday I had work...I got to work the skate section, so it was enjoyable.. Though (as you've probably seen if you looked at all the pix i posted yesterday), zumiez is making us wear holiday shirts... blah. and mine isn't even my size...:-S

After i got off shift, I noticed my phone beeping... i had a zillion texts from my friends telling me FOB post poned their show (which was supposed to be tonight, sundy) until monday due to snow... which was kind of a relief to me, because i've been feeling kinda BLAH about the FOB show... i'm dreading it for some reason.

A while later, I met up with my dad, and he took me shopping at Macy's... he hates me wearing punk or skate(my dad is against everything skating) clothes, especially when i buy boys clothes....and wanted me to get girly clothes.... and i've been on this wierd rap/hip-hop kick of late.. so i bought a bunch of Baby Phat stuff... i got two hoodies, a pair of capri pants, and a button up shirt.. which all cost about $350... and then i got a pair of Coach sneakers (i was pissed off because Macy's DOESN'T sell DC Dyrdeks, or Men's DCs in general... they had womens DCs, but they were ugly and cheaply made), and a Guess belt......... it's all so super girly...

Today i didn't do a whole lot.. i went shopping.. and bought a purse that i intend to return, as well as a set of nose studs(i took my ring out)... and i went to see the movie "I'm Not Here" about the life of Bob Dylan... it was thee wierdest movie.. it was done very strangl... it's not in sequence..they have 6 different people(including a woman and a black boy play Bob).. and it was not accurate at all..... if i hadn't just learned all about Bob Dylan in school a few weeks ago, i'd have been totally lost as to what was going on.... certain parts of the movie have a cartoonish quality..and parts of it are a fake documentary (kind of like Best In Show, but no a comedy)..and it also goes back and forth between black & white and color... it was good, but strange.


oh tonight i discovered an AWESOMExCORE tv show.. it's called "Strange Foods w/ Andrew Zimmern"(or something like that) on the Travel Channel... this dude travels places and eats icky stuff like bull penises, BEATING frog hearts, dorian fruit, crickets, lizzard sake, live turtle, chicken balls, ect... haha it's really nasty, but entertaining.. you can't stop watching.... it kind of has a jackass effect.

is really calming... and subdued..................i haven't watched this in like 4 years.

i'm stealing the "top 5 tv shows" idea from Jennifer's (adelineviolence) journal. haha.
this is my list of my favorite CURRENT tv shows.. if you let me list shows that were no longer on.. it would be probably be like "viva la bam", "tony hawks gigantic skate park tour", "boy meets world", "so wierd", "anderson cooper 360"(when i t was only an hour long and came on at 4pm)...

MY TOP 5 FAVORITE CURRENT SHOWS

#5. The Colbert Report

as an obsessive fan of the real news, it's hilarious to hear people discuss news in a satirical mannor.  haha.. i'm sad Stephen has dropped out of the presidential race, because i would have voted for him.

#4. Entourage

Entourage is awesome in everyway... the story is great...the actors are great.... Vince & Ari are hot... the characters are totally believable... and hey whats better than a show about a hot movie star in LA, his friends, and his agent, all living the high life....

#3. Anderson Cooper 360º

I have always loved watching the news.... i do not know why.  I can pretty much watch CNN 24/7 and not get bored.    Anderson Cooper is without a doubt my favorite CNN anchor.  He's hard hitting, seems extremely genuine, and always goes to where the danger is... which makes for some awesome TV viewing.... i especially love it when he goes to hurricanes(well all the ones except for katrina)...  oh and another reason why Anderson Cooper 360º is awesome, is because Anderson is totally hot... for a 40 year old. hahaha... though he's rumored to be gay. :(

#2. Ghost Hunters

I've had an obsession with the paranormal as long as i can remember....i love Ghost Hunters, because it is probably thee only legit ghost hunting tv show.... unlike Most Haunted on the Travel Channel(where every place they go is "haunted" and their mediums can feel the tortured souls),  a lot of the time on Ghost Hunters they will actually debunk the "hauntings", and other times they'll come up with rock solid proof that a place is haunted..    i seriously adore this show.

#1. Rob & Big

i lurv Rob & Big for 3 reasons... 1. it's really light hearted and cute..everything on the show is happy and cheerful..  2. Meaty & Mini Horse are fricken ADORABLE.  3. SKATEBOARDING! haha..
aside from all of that.. Rob & Big is extremely addictive and quoteable.  it's also the only show worthy of watch on MTV... and one of the few "reality" shows (pfftt the whole show is completely scripted, and imo more of a sitcom then a reality show)  worth watching.


Honorable Mentions:  Weeds, Katie & Peter, The Soup, Best Week Ever, The Situiation Room, Larry King Live, Nancy Grace, The Daily Show, Hannah Montanna, Jake Long American Dragon, and Desperate Housewives.

aahhhh i'm working on my college application essay.... :-S
here's what i have so far...it's nowhere near done... comments suggestions... please.



Write about a person you admire. That is the option that I have chosen for my essay. But out of all the people that I admire, who do I admire the most. Who should I write abut, when there are so many people that I admire.
Bam Margera - I admire professional skateboarder, Bam Margera, considerably for all of his endeavors.
His skateboarding is probably on of the lesser of his accomplishments for which I revere him.
I very much treasure Mr. Margera's films and television enterprises. As a teen Mr. Margera used his monetary take from his professional skateboarding, to invest in film equipment. Mr. Margera used the equipment to film himself and his group of friends doing irrational and nonsensical stunts and pranks. His first video was released in March of 1999, titled "CKY: Landspeed". "CKY: Landspeed" went on to spawn a series of three more stunt/prank videos which were released between 1999 and 2003, a documentary and a full length movie, all written, directed, edited, and starring Mr Margera. The CKY Crew video series has now sold well over a million copies.
It was the first CKY Crew movie, "CKY: Landspeed", which caught the eye of people at MTV. They decided to commingle Mr. Margera's "CKY Crew", with Johnny Knoxville and his team of pranksters whom did prank videos for the now defunct Big Brother Magazine, and create a TV show. That TV show was "Jackass". "Jackass" proved to be an extreme phenomenon, catching on almost instantly. To this day "Jackass" is still extremely well-liked and re-runs on a weekly basis, after being off air for five years.
After "Jackass" ended and "Jackass: The Move" was released, MTV approached Mr. Margera to take part in another television series, this time he would be the star. In October of 2003, "Viva La Bam" debuted on MTV. "Viva La Bam", which starred Mr. Margera, his family and the "CKY Crew", catapulted Mr. Margera into superstardom. "Viva La Bam" quickly became MTV's most prominent show. Mr. Margera was everywhere, in countless magazines, his merchandise was in every 'lifestyle brand' store, and he was on top of the skating & teenage pop-culture world. Due to Mr. Margera's popularity from "Viva La Bam", his skateboard re-lated merchandise were flying off store shelves, Mr. Margera holds the accomplishment for highest selling action sports merchandise, and most skateboard pro models sold in a single month.

i haven't been able to sleep lately. i'm almost completely nocturnal.


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it's not a good feeling.

i don't really want to do anything.   i don't want to go to school.   i don't want to go to work.   i don't want to see anyone.   i don't even really want to skate(atleast not until i get shoes with decent treads).

i can't really think straight.
at all.

i only know what day it is because i watch cnn.
way too much.


i'm still not listening to rock.. well on my ipod sometimes.. but in the car it's either rap or jason ellis.



i got wentz to paddle on my skateboard yesterday in the living room.  theres hope for her.


i need new head phones for my ipod.


i need new.

don't comment this. it's not worth it.

1. "Wannabe" by the Spice Girls  - this song opened me up to the world of music.  Thus I will always love this song AND the Spice Girls.

2. "The Rock Show" by Blink182 - this is the song that got me into rock.  This song probably changed my life more than any other song... Which is why when I finally got to hear Blink (well +44 ) preform it live this summer in San Diego(Blink's home town), I broke down crying uncontrollable tears of joy (haha i looked like one of those girls on one of those old boyband videos).....  my favorite moment of the year.

3. "Sk8r Boi" by Avril Lavigne - I know it's really lame to say that an Avril song changed your life... But if it wasn't for this song, I probably would have never started skateboarding.. pretty sad i know.. but this song did help change my life.

4. "Jaded" by MEST featuring Benji Madden - I know it's cliche' but this song saved my life... When I was 14, i'd set a deadline to commit suicide by.  Then I went and saw MEST in concert, and felt nothing but joy.. And by the time they played that song, I decided there was something to live for and I didn't want to die any more.  I also stopped cutting, and ended up going over two years, after that without doing so.

5. "Lifestyle Of The Rich & Famous" by Good Charlotte -  This was the first Good Charlotte song I ever heard (well and knew it was by GC.. i'd heard "The Little Things", loved it, and didn't know who it was by)... And from the very first time I heard this song I was hooked on Good Charlotte.  Even though I'd been a GC fan since 2002, I didn't get to see them live until 2004.  I ended up meeting my best friend at that concert...

yay! I got hired at Zumiez.. woot i get to work in a skateshop...  I will most likely start at the job next week. 
I'm stoked; finally a job that fits with me....(*bad flash backs to Hollister and not being able to wear any black or make up*)



god i'm tired.. i went to bed late, and was woken up at 8am to Hellicopters hovering over my house.  Apparently some baby drowned(but didn't die) at some house one street over... So there were two new hellicopters above...  My mom didn't want to be in the house(because of how earlier this year the two police hellicopters crashed into each other).. So we went to find out what happened(we weren't sure yet, and were wondering if there could be as escaped criminal)...The whole street where it happened was taped off(why the heck do they need to block in a whole entire street, over a baby falling into a swimming pool?) and then we went and got some Starbucks from the new drive through  over at the Pavillions. (even though there are two Starbucks within less than 5 mins of our house) When we got home i fell back asleep, and was too tired to go to school at 11.

When i woke up, i got the call on my vm that i'd got the job at Zumiez... So then later i dragged myself to get dressed and stuff and went to get my info stuff on the job.     On the way driving to Zumiez i listened to Jason Ellis on Sirius.. I was so bummed last week, because we had a rental car w/o Sirius so I haven't been able to listen to Jason Ellis in like a week.. hahah i have a serious addiction to his radio show, it's really a fucked up show.. but it always puts a smile on my face.
After leaving the mall, I put Sirius on again; Radio Bam was on... My mom and I made a detour to drive thru Starbucks, so we could listen to the trainwreck that is Radio Bam... Radio Bam totally sucks, i seriously don't enjoy listening to it anymore...Chad is the only thing on it worth listening to.
After that i went to AJ's and got a pork chop(to think this time last month i was still a vegetarian) for dinner.. When i was getting some Sprite, i made small talk with the one guy who works there whos kind of cute who went as Sheckler for halloween, and he commented on how rad & planned out my Dyrdek costume was. hhaha.

i'm so bored.. i had to register online with Zumiez, and it took me like an hour to find the routing number for my bank account. blah.

I took the SATs today.
Ahh. i went to bed at 2am, woke up at 6.. and got to the SAT place(ASU) at 7:30... and i didn't leave until 1:45. acckk... i'm not supposed to talk about the test. so i'm not going to. but i swear i'm probably the only person to ever write about Britney Spears & Rob Dyrdek on their SAT essay. lmfao.

So i was browsing through buzznet last night, searching under my name. And i found this journal entry disputing the fact that i'm a skate punk: http://xfalsepretense.buzznet.com/user/journal/882151/i-got-my-hands-in-my-pockets/#comments
what the fuck? Why the fucking hell would i lie about skating? Seriously. I've been fucking obsessed with skating since i was 14 or 15. If i was lying about the fact that i skate, would have a fucking $400 skate ramp sitting in my garage(if you look through my photo album, there are pictures of it). Would always be talking non-stop about going to the skate park, watching Tony Hawk videos, ect.
oh yes.. these expensive skate sneakers i bought in august got this way from walking...yes the sides got worn down to the point the white rubber under it is showing through, from me pretending to skate...

Oh yes.. and my board that i bought on Labor Day, got to looking like this from me pretending to skate.... And the DC & Alien Workshop stickers that i had put on it for Halloween(look at my halloween pix, it can be seen there), are grinded off, from me pretending to skate...



.. I also guess my ankle broke itself in 2005... And that my other ankle sprained itself last summer... And I didn't have a cat scan a month ago from hitting my head skating, and my knee isn't still swollen from fucking up on a backwards disaster... on a good note.. I've got a job interview at Zumiez (a skate shop.. because you know i'm not a skater...) tomorrow.. wish me luck. good night.

The truest most real friends that you'll ever have are the people that put you down, tell you you suck, and tell you the truth about yourself.
Those people only exist in real life.
On here, people love you for your hair or who you know. Honestly, none of you like me for me. You like me because my hair changes about every two weeks, and it's some bold bright color (isn't that also the reason why 75% of the people that like Audrey, like her?)..And because I get into shows for free and get to interview bands. Wether you do it intentionally or not, people always try to befriend anyone who "knows" or has some legitimate way to the bands they like, because they think by knowing this person it may help them get closer.
I am probably not frazing this correctly, because I'm tired, and I don't feel like re-reading and correcting what i'm writing. But it's the truth.
People like you more when you're going to shows, with backstage passes, meeting rockstars, have bright colored extentions, and wearing trendy clothing.
I've started skating again and focusing less on RSB / going to shows...I also have solid black hair, and i've been wearing volcom jeans & dc shirts a lot.... And now no one seems to really be around as much of late. Now everyone has other friends that they need to hang out with, and no one invites me a long. Friday nights are lonely.
Maybe I'm just imagining this.
But no matter how long i stay away from the skate park. When i go, people still tell me I suck, but under all of it, i think they're(well certain select group of people who i've been friend with since I was 15), seem to be happy to see me... Heck even the ones I haven't known long.. Skaters in general, totally pwn pop/punk scene kids.. Skater kids are real. I have real friends there. People who don't have a clue that I interview bands, and will never think i'm going to get them into a show for free or anything.

I like real people.

I had fun on Halloween with Rio and his friends Jake & Matt. I've known Rio since i was 9. He likes me for me and I like him for him. Not for what he can get me. And I like his friend Jake because he's a cool person. haha and his friend Matt & I bonded over the fact we both have a creepy stalkerish obsession with "rob & big".
Common interests are real reasons to have friends. Not hair extentions.

So let me ask you this?
Whats my favorite color?
Whats my favorite tv show?
Whats my favorite band?
Whats my favorite cd?
Whats my favorite song?
Whats my favorite sports team?
Who is my hero, that i've said i would like to trade lives with?
Whats my tattoo of?
Whats my real hair color?



none of you really like me or want to be my friend. and i'm ok with that. i'm just not ok with my real life of late.



to quote fall out boy: "strike us like matches, because everyone deserves a flame, we only do it for the scars and stories, not the fame"