I'm Samantha and I love to skate. I also like to shake things up a bit

why is it that i cant get up at 8am like a normal person today i woke up at 11.... if i get up any later than 9am on Sunday, i will miss getting to spend the day with FOB at the Flyaway. :-S.......... i didn't even go to bed late last night.. i fell asleep before midnight.

just when i kind of convinced my mom that i'd be safe going to see Fall Out Boy play in Chula Vista, there has so be terrorist scares in London.. Now she's afraid that something bad will happen at FOB...
i.
want.
to.
see.
FOB.
play.
again.
really.
bad.
I really could careless about going to the fan club Flyaway..i don't want 1 on 1 time. I was to see them play again.
i.
just.
like.
the.
music.
i discovered that fact last friday.



well it's 11:30.. i need to go shower, and put on a dress, so i can go do something before i go on the Coronado Del historical tour later.

i arrived in San Diego around noon-ish at the Del Coranado Hotel(wearing the Clandestine "every lil thing yr heart desires" hoodie, t-shirt, and with two of the matching duffles........i so need to buy a life on ebay)... it's gorgeous.. i was pissed off that our rooms not in the original Victorian structure.....but it's still one of the most gorgeous hotel rooms i've ever been in, and i've stayed in a lot of 5 star hotels.

later on i shall go search for the ghost of Kate Morgan and take pix.. haha.. i've already walked down the stair case where her body was found atleast 10 times today(haha it's one of the only ways to get to the beach)

my mom basically is disowning me. she told me flat out that she realises she needs to learn to not care about me.


i can credit fall out boy concerts for this.


it's amazing how concerts, and the actions of people who you thought were your friends, can destroy your life.


i need to get web site adds and apply to paparazzi photo angencies, so i can move out.


once again i feel suicidal.

My interviews with The Academy Is... and Cobra Starship got canceled due to Honda Civic Tour security issues.

I was looking up stuff on wikipedia and youtube about Sid Vicious the other night... i forgot how fucking rad he is.... I lloovveeee his music video for "My Way", and i'd never seen his video for "Something Else" before.... I also watched some of the Sex Pistols peformance videos... and it got me thinking "these guys look just as manufactured if not more manufactured than most pop/punk bands"... Seriously. The Sex Pistols were supposed to be so punk rock and angsty... But if you look at some of these videos they look pretty polished and manufactured, they had stylish clothing, a gimmick, ect... I mean for fucks sake at one point they started filming a movie called "Who Killed Bambie" that was supposed to be a "punk version of A Hard Days Night"... which in easier terms for the unknowledge-able would translate out to a Sex Pistols version of Spice World.... and in the end when all the money was pulled out of "Who Killed Bambie", they still did the fake documentary on themselves "The Great Rock N Roll Swindle". Feature films and fake documentarys are not punk rock.... Also from what i've read Sid Vicous, really wasn't the violent or hardcore person they make him out to be, and that a lot of his behavior was to fit into the image given to him.
this is all probably a bunch of jumbled words and thoughts... basically what i'm trying to say is the original punks didn't seem anymore punk than whats out now.



I'm back into playing the bass a lot...I taught myself the Sex Pistols' "God Save The Queen" & "Anarchy For The Uk", as well as the begining to Cky's "Escape From Hellview".
The Sex Pistols songs are so simple and fun to play. Cky's stuff is a bit harder, and involves using two fingers and no pick(though the tabs i found could be wrong.. next time see matt online i should ask him)... I would far rather play the Sex Pistols stuff.... Learning songs on bass by that were originally played by shitty bass players(i.e. sid vicious or pete wentz) is more fun to play.. It's all so simple, and takes about 5 minutes to learn the whole song....And then when I play it, it sounds as good or better than the cd version.
Does this make me an under achiever? I always try to take the easiest road. Maybe this is why I can't last at mall jobs.

4 days until the Honda Civic Tour.. i'll be seeing Fall Out Boy for the 2nd time this year(and then i'll be seeing them again on July 1st)... and i really wish i wasn't going.... i don't really like them... it's not my scene.

So i was talking to Matt from CKY on aim and well the long and short of it is a song i'd done was played on Sirius Radios "Radio Bam" show. lemme just copy & paste the im convo w/ Matt:
MATT (10:50:17 AM):    not too much, did you hear your cig song got played on sirius?
sammi (10:50:30 AM):    WHAT?!?!?!?!?!?!??!
sammi (10:50:33 AM):    WHEN?!?!?!?
MATT (10:50:41 AM):    jess and chad did a hostle takeover on faction 28
sammi  (10:50:45 AM):    OMG!!!
MATT (10:50:46 AM):    and chad played it
MATT (10:50:50 AM):    let me find you the link
sammi (10:50:51 AM):    do you know if it's up online?
sammi  (10:50:53 AM):    kk
MATT (10:51:59 AM):    http://www.ipacmm.com/radiobam/radio.bam.11.06.07.sirius.mp3
MATT  (10:52:01 AM):    that might be it
sammi (10:52:07 AM):    kk
sammi (10:53:57 AM):    was it on monday Radio Bam ep?
MATT (10:54:15 AM):    might have been
sammi (10:54:32 AM):    haha i cannot believe they played it.
MATT (11:00:33 AM):    haha did you hear it?
sammi (11:00:46 AM):    not yet.
sammi (11:00:57 AM):    i'm having to download it.
MATT (11:00:57 AM):    its at like 47 minutes
sammi (11:01:03 AM):    kk?
sammi (11:01:10 AM):    should i be worried?
sammi (11:08:59 AM):    hahah jess thinks it's scary
sammi (11:09:07 AM):    that song was 100% a joke
MATT (11:09:20 AM):    haha its short but i figured id let you know, chad loves it and plays it all the time
sammi (11:09:29 AM):    aww he does?
MATT (11:10:00 AM):    yes mam
sammi (11:11:23 AM):    can you tell chad i say "thank you" for playing it?
MATT (11:11:31 AM):    haha of course




so if any of you are curious in hearing the song(which Diana & I recorded as a joke late one night making fun of some quizzes we'd read on Quizilla): http://www.myspace.com/winterattheoverlook
and if you want to hear Chad & Jess playing it on Radio Bam, click on 11.6.07: http://www.ipacmm.com/radiobam/

i'm going to get my hair dyed blonde today and then blonde extentions tomorrow.  i don't know what i'm going to do hair wise if i go to the John Mayer concert tonight.  oh well.
i'm hoping i look good as a blonde...i was blonde in the winter, but it was a messed up shade of blonde because i'd had my hair pink and red for over a year prior.

^--me as a blonde in November
hopefully i'll look good, especially since it will be long long blonde....





(edited out.. just because i no longer feel to share)

i seem to be using this journal far more than my other journal, ThenLifeSeemsAlmostEnchantedAfterAll.BlogSpot.com which i'm pretty sure no one reads but note to self: update it.......and i never use my myspace journal(does anyone?)... so here i am back here updating this journal.

Last night I talked to Stephanie (not Stephanie from the HIM show.. not Stephanie Chelsea's Backstreet Boys and 90's pop obsessed sister..... But Stephanie from SCC who is obsessed with shopping, make up, the color pink and Justin Timberlake) yesterday about being roomies in LA.. she seems to be all for it.  She said we should go over to LA and look at it.... and then my phone went dead.  By the time I called her back, she had to go eat dinner.  So I'll call her today about going to LA......  i'm really hoping to go this weekend.  Because if not this weekend i'll have to wait until July 9th atleast and that would be cutting it far to close to Warped Tour, since next weekend I'm going to the Honda Civic Tour and interviewing Cobra Starship & The Academy Is, then the weekend after that I shall be in San Diego at the Fall Out Boy Fan Club Flyaway(why on earth did i ever join their fan club? oh yeah to get tickets before their concerts sold out, as they always do here)....  the sooner i get over to LA, the better..  Plus once  Warped Tour is done with, I have 0 commitments here in Phoenix.   And obviously it will be far easier to schedual interviews and such in LA.....but first I need to look at houses, figure out my sources of income, and make sure Stephanie is as serious as I am.


Paris.Hilton.Is.Still.In.Jail.I.Dislike.Peoples.Unjust.Treatment.Of.The.Rich.Because.Of.Jealousy.


after i am done updating news on RSB, and work out to My Chemical Romance music videos, take a shower,  get dressed, go get a lunch that strictly abides by the rules of the "omg pete wentz is hot so i want to be skinny for the flyaway" diet (which will probably be friend tofu from RA),  I plan to go after advertizers to generate some cash for RockstarBaby.net.......... I need all the money I can get to move to LA...and the money my dad sends me(which can be anywhere from $200 to $600+  per month) isn't going to pay for the rent, car payment(haha i still need to go lease myself a car), gas, food, cabel, hair, waxing, concerts, teenie/rock/tabliod magazines, Clandestine hoodies, ect that i need on a month basis. (not some of the listed things were supposed to be humorous. i am not a moron though my speaking voice and things i sometimes say when putting on the act of "cutesy girly girl" may make me sound that way..........in reality i am a tom-boy who enjoys watching CNN....i just have a really moronic speaking voice.....fucking valley girl, meets new york accent.)

i've been looking online for homes in the Hollywood Hills.... so far i've found two that were absolutly perfect.... for only $4,000 per month.   2 beds 2 baths...  i would get a roomate.. but i still don't know how i'd afford the $2,000 per month.   and i'd still need a car.
i went to ikea the other day to look for a new bed... there was all this really cute modern furnicher... i'm definatly going to get it when i move to the Hills.... but not now, since my room theme here is "castle bam".

i really want  need to move out on my own.


yesterday i got my nails done. i'd grown my nails out long, but in fits of nervousness or depression bit them down to stubs.  so i got acrylics put on so i can't bite, nice long black acrylics that i will have to file down before my next drum/bass lesson.   the one nail tech asked me my name, then the other asked if i'd been working in tv, because she saw a girl on there who she thought was me.  i didn't ask whom..but chances are she's one of the 21421421 people who has mistaken me for Rhianna or Fefe Dobson..  i've actually had people come up to me in public thinking i'm one of those two.

yesterday i had my "assistant" (aka my mom because i felt to nervous to call) call up FOB's PR and ask about interviewing them.  The PR person said a phone interview would probably be more likely, but to e-mail her.. so I did.      no.response.back.yet.   how many months have i been playing e-mail tag for? since march.

i wish i could go back 5 years. when being an adult was around the block, and not just around the corner.

i miss listening to Good Charlotte and Avril Lavigne.  i still wish my life was like the "complicated" video.  i still think Benji Madden was totally hot w/ his liberty spikes.    I miss Hot Topic selling "punk" and "goth" clothes that were black.  I miss Hot Topic being black in general(the fucking scene trends got them switching all the stores to white). I miss Nirvana being super trendy.   I miss TRL having Carson on it.  I miss TRL not being painful to watch.   I miss arguing with my mom and begging her to let me go to concerts, instead of being able to go to one every other day.  I miss thinking I was a hardcore punk, even though I wasn't, instead of now wishing that I had cred even though I probably do.   I miss having hope for the future.  I miss being confident.  I miss feeling like I looked good walking out of the house in punk clothes and eyeliner tears, instead of spending hours trying to look nice and feeling ugly all the time.

i.wish.i.could.have.enjoyed.my.teen.years.and.not.been.depressed.  now i have 7 months left to make it all up but it won't happen. i wish i could go back.

i updated the blog on RSB today with a lot of the latest news & gossip.. i hadn't done so in a while.  i plan to keep up once again with daily blogging.. and Diana gets out of school tomorrow so she's going to, to when she gets her free time.  I've added Lexy(harlequin) to the staff, and a Aus Correspondent.

i feel hopeful.
i want RSB to take off.
and get really big.
i want to get to interview all the biggest bands.
the small ones too.
i want people to go on our message boards.
and be addicted to them.
i want to know more of the rich & famous rockstars.
i just want to be happy.
and avoid going to college.

my pug died this morning.  my mom got me him for my 7th birthday.  you do the math.  he was an old dog. and apparently pugs only last about 10 years.  he'd been really sick for the last few months, had a stroke and stopped eating. but he kept holding on....this morning i got up from watching cnn to go check on him, and i noticed he didn't appear to be breathing. i. didn't. want. to. deal. with. it.  so i went to my moms room and asked her if we could go get breakfast. i didn't tell her about the dog. she didn't want to. so we chatted for a while. then she agreed to take me to this new place called "Cup Cakes" to get breakfast.  i told her i wanted to go get different pants on, even though i was content with the leggings i had on.  only so she'd discover first if the dog was indeed dead. my dog is dead. and cup cakes doesn't open until 10am. we went to coffee bean instead.  "welcome to the black prade" came on.



all my dogs die the first week of june.  exactly 5 years ago on june 3rd my maltese, Backstreet, died.  todays june 1st, and Einstein died.