I'm Samantha and I love to skate. I also like to shake things up a bit

i curled my hair this morning. it looks rad. i almost never curle my hair.

my business cards are finally done. i picked them up.. i looovvveee them. they're black with my name & "rockstarbaby.net" in bright red and the rest of the writing is in white.. the font on it is called "beckett"(hahaha), it looks like old english font.. i llloooovvvee it.

so on my way to pick up dinner, after going to American Apparal in Tempe to get some black leggings, i saw the "Girls Gone Wild" bus parked outside a club on 5th ave in Scottsdale. AHAHAHAH Girls Gone Wild.. the bus has these girls with big boobs on the side wearing tight shirts and has the Girls Gone Wild logo next to it. totally hilarious. i sadly didn't have my camera with me, but i took a picture of it on my camera phone.

i'm working right now on the new version of RockstarBaby.net.. it's gorgeous.. it makes the old/current version look like total shit. i'm having some trouble with my link and iframe coding though. bllaaahh...

right now i'm watching V For Vendetta.. it's such a good movie.. but it's scary. I hope the world never comes to that.

i talked to Chelsea ealier... looks like we're going to HelloGoodBye on friday.

i went with Shawna to the Jeffree Star show tonight.. it was really fun. It was nice and short.. i like short shows.. the opening act was great.. Jeffree and Raquel were great. i took a ton of pix and video.. i'll upload them later. <3

i can't sleep. so i was watching Viva La Bam dvd's. god i miss 2005. after watching 1 episode, which was episode 1 season 1 "phils hellday/bam's skate park"... it made me want to go skating. So i went skating. it was sunrise. i haven't gone skating at sunrise in probably over a year. i used to love skating at sunrise so fucking much. i fucking hate growing up. i'm going to be old to skate soon. i was actually skating really good today. i've always hated olling and stuff, because it freaks me out. but today i was going fast and doing ollies, which is quite hard when you're holding a pink RAZR in one hand and an iPod in the other(i was wearing my fob pj pants, and a a7x hoodie, and my RAZR kept falling out of the hoodie pockets).
it makes me want to go to Skate Camp badly. i wanted to go super super super badly when i was 15, at the height of my skate obsession. Diana and I were going to go to Camp Element(i wanted to go to woodward, but Diana wanted to go to Element....hahah once upon a time when Diana was a skater), but Diana canned out. So i didn't go. Then last year i was going to go to Woodward, but I severly sprained my ankle skateboarding in the middle of the night(go me for deciding 3am was the perfect time to practice gapping) during the end of May..my doctor told me i shouldn't skate for a month or two.. So my mom said bye bye skate camp....... I was back up skating in a week though.
only problem.... the only weeks i'm "free" would be june 10 - 16... that week at Woodward West appears to be booked, though it says to call up to see if theres any availibility...week 2 & 3 of skate camp i'd be busy(concerts & san diego/flyaway trip) then theres "girls rule week"(july 1-7), but 1. it also appears to be booked, plus i'll be at the Fall Out Boy Overcast Kid's flyaway on the 1st and 2nd.. week 5 = a no because warped tour is on the 11th and i have press to that. Week 6 & 7 i could pos go to, since theres nothing i can think of off the top of my head that i'm commited to. Week 8 is no. HIM, MCR and LP on Aug 1st, i'm not missing that.. Hahah and i know my mom wont want to miss that either, because she loves HIM as much or pos more than i do(haha she was even saying yesterday we need to buy tix). so that leaves week #9 or #10..but thats around when my mom wanted to go to Malibu.


The last summer i could attend camp... and i doubt i'll go.

i miss my childhood.

oh wait.. it says you can be 18 to attend... ok.. so i have this summer and next summer to do so.. rawk on. ohh and it says adult campers are welcomed.. hrrm.but i think adults are only allowed the last week.

i'm.just.a.little.skate.punk.trying.to.find.her.way.in.life.

I don't know what everyone thinks of me. But everyone seems to think i'm something better than i am....to the point i've been followed at shows, and people seem to think i'm friends with celebrities that i've never even met. You all seem to think i like have some fab life hanging out with rockstars every day. I don't.
to set things straight. though i've never lied about anything.
I go to concerts about once every two weeks, sometimes more. Sometimes a few days in a row. At shows i don't normally "hang out" with rockstars...I interview them... Which a lot of the time means going on their tour bus, talking to them on video or on tape for about 45 minutes and then saying bye...And can sometimes result in playing guitar hero, or what not.
I do have a lot of famous phone numbers on my cell phone. But most were given to me by their management. Only two were given to me by the person themself...And that had nothing to do with interviews or my web site.
At every show I go to people know me. I go to so many shows now, that i have so many friends and aquaintances.
Maybe this still sounds pretty awesome. Who wouldn't want free tickets to My Chemical Romance, Warped Tour, ect and passes to get you up to the stage to take pictures?
who knows i'm pretty young. maybe in the future i'll have more famous friends. to quote Fall Out Boy: "we're only liars but we're the best, only good for the latest trends, only good so you can have almost famous friends". ok so maybe not the best quote, because like i said, i don't lie and i haven't lied.

i.did.this.all.by.myself.no.one.else.and.then.i.encluded.my.friends.because.i.luff.them.

all i ever wanted in life up until i was 14, was to be a pop/rock star. and i could have been. but i was told i needed original music. something i had trouble finding. and in the end couldnt find. so i gave up.
when i started skateboarding. then all i wanted was to be a pro skater. not for money. not really for fame. not even for free stuff. but because i l.o.v.e. loved to skate. i still love to skate. when i'm alone at night, skateboarding, listening to my ipod, while going around in circles, no tricks, listening to: golden, the path, mountains, burry me deep inside your heart, close yet far, lalalie, or other songs that make me cry..and then i look up at the stars it's the only time i feel like gods there.... it's my ultimate dream to be in the x-games and get to compete in the mens vert compition even though i'm a girl....................i'm not good enough to ever be sponsored, atleast not based on talent. and certainly i doubt i'd ever win a competition, unless it was girls only and there werent any good skaters in it. i'm just a basic skater. for a girl i'm about average, maybe slightly above. i think it's because i started late in life. but thats what i wish i could do.

i.will.never.be.like.bam.margera.but.i'm.not.going.to.cry.

the reason i started interviewing rockstars is a short long story. I like doing web sites. the ones i had were pointless. i needed a new one. one night i was bored and was looking at perezhilton.com and i was like "i wannt do the rock version of this". i had this old url, RockstarBaby.net, that i'd owned since i was 13, and decided to use that url for it. i did rock gossip on there for about a week. haha the original "gossip" entrys were about MCR's new vid, CKY album gossip, stalking Pete Wentz's internet blog, and other useless garbage. After a week or so i though "hmmm i should see if i can interview bands and i should do more news type stuff than gossip". I searched the net for the management contact info on some bands i liked or bands Die-An-Uh(fuck it.. her name is Diana), and e-mailed them. So e-mailed back saying yes, some didn't respond at all. But thats how i started with interviewing people.. Back only 4 or so months ago.. Since then i've got better and better stuff. The bigger the band that you get access to, the more people will let you have access. Landing the photo pass to My Chemical Romance was my big break. When you tell people that My Chem's people gave you access, it looks good. Which is probably why Island sent me the press packet on FOB and a free copy of "Infinity On High". And why Warped Tour granted press and photo passes. Or Cobra & TAI.
A lot of my drive behind doing the interviews, is it will look good to a college. Since I've given up on my music career, and i am not talented enough to be a skater. I'd like to be a journalist for CNN. Ever since i can remember like when i was 7 or so.. i've watched CNN.. and after 9/11, i've been obsessive about watching CNN. When i was 11 i would sleep with it on, because i knew if something bad happened it would be on there emdiatly. Anyway, i've always thought it would be cool to be a journalist... So i figure interviewing Rockers is my start on the road to that.... I probably won't ever be on CNN...i have tattoos, piercings, and i dress punk(though surprisingly enough i have a ton of like corperate-ish concervitive clothes in the back of my closet, and i can put on the "hi i'm a lawyer" look like thhhaattt!)....but maybe this will all lead to me being a VJ or something else in that realm.

whats.in.a.name.?.

I HATE my stage/scene name, Sammi XO. I used that name on my myspace as a joke one day. I'm not sure why. I didn't want my "last name" to be some bad thing like "suicide", "obscene", "tragic", ect. So i decided to use "XO" because love the song by Fall Out Boy, and because Pete Wentz used it as his blogger name....... Bad. Idea. For some reason i decided to use "Sammi XO" as my screen name for RockstarBaby.net's grey matter blogging softwear. Bad. Idea. It stuck.. But i feel really wierd about it. I feel like a stalker for using the "XO" part... I wish i'd just gone by Sammi. It's better to be real than to be fake.

All.I.Want.Is.A.Steady.Career.And.A.Way.To.Support.My.Out.Of.Control.Spending.And.My.Life.Style.

So there you have it. I know to some extent a few "famous" people(haha people in bands..and we're not in anyway close friends). I am aqainted with quite a few bands. I've met a TON of famous people thru my web site, before my web site, and since my web site but having nothing to do with it. Maybe my life is fabulous. Maybe it isn't.
I am lucky. I live in Scottsdale Arizona. I go shopping waaayyy too much. My dad gives me a huge allowance.
But i'm not exactly living the Lifestyles Of The Rich And Famous, or mabe i am?







this blog was waaayyy too long and probably confusing.. it will probably get deleted by me later.

Last night i was up until 5am, sending out query letter asking for interviews with different bands. I woke up at 2pm today and look what was in my in box: " Hi Sammi - We don't have tix for this date. If you're able to get your own tickets we can set you up with interview with Cobra Starship and also The Academy Is..."

I e-mailed back letting her know i already have tickets! .... ohh yaaahhh.. Cobra and TAI!!!

looking at guys on GothicMatch.com.. haha i got bored with looking for a web design job on monster, so i signed up for gothicmatch.com just to see what guys there are out there that are "availible".. haha wow, most of the guys on there are fugz. haha. lol i just sent a "wink" to a 15 year old, because he was the only decent looking dude and he plays bass.. hahaha
i.am.really.bored.

in other things.. i want to get Chels a Pit ticket to the FOB show.. but i don't feel like spending more than $50.... am i being unrealistic or what? hrrmm maybe i should just get her a Labbit.

So i pre-odered Lies For The Liars at Zia the other day so that i could get a pass to The Used's listening party at Game Works....
So i got to Game Worksat 6pm(which was when it started) i waited online for about half an hour or so for the signing before getting up to the front. I met Quinn first. I had him sign two cd posters(one for me, one for Die-An-Uh because she couldn't go) and my copy of "In Love & Death", i also got a picture and a hug from Quinn. Hahah my mom who was there told Quinn about RockstarBaby.net, and he said he'd check it out. Quinn couldn't have been nicer.. he's such a sweetie. Then i met Jeph, i had him sign the posters, the cd, and my arm(he drew this fishy on it.. sssooo cute.. it's a bummer i'll prob have to scrub it off for work), and then i got a picture with him and a hug. My mom told Jeph about RSB as well, and he wrote the url down on his hand. hahaha.
The cd(from what i could hear over all the noise in game works) sounds REALLY good. I cannot wait to pick it up from Zia when it comes out. Woot only two months until i get to see The Used again play again at Warped.

<333 ps: haha i totally bumped into the chick from the FOB concert who had the naked pete pix on her side kick.. i thought it was totes hilarious.. i keep bumping into her at shows. haha.

haha i just wrote thee best/funniest lyrics... i seriously am going to work on music for it when i get home from the used listening party...

"some call it stalking, but i call it love (the teenie anthem)"
i saw this hot guy on tv,
his lyrics totally spoke to me,
now i'm looking him up on Wikipedia,
now his picture is the background on my sidekick 3,

some call it stalking,
but i call it love,
that is what i feel now as i'm tieing him up,
some call it stalking,
but i call it love,
the way he's screaming is making me blush,


i think we're going to get married,
so i'm looking up his house,
on google satalite maps,
i'm gonna go there,
and hold him at gun point,
till he agrees to,
go to las vegas,
and get married it me,

1 2 3 go

some call it stalking,
but i call it love,
that is what i feel now as i'm tieing him up,
some call it stalking,
but i call it love,
the way he's screaming is making me blush,

i am dialing his phone,
he's picking up,
i am im'ing he screen name,
he's signing off,
i bombarded his myspace,
with 182 comments,
i hacked his buzznet account,
and found out it wasn't his,
and now i see my face on the tv,
and they're knocking at my door,
with a restraining order for me,

some call it stalking,
but i call it love,
that is what i feel now as i'm tieing him up,
some call it stalking,
but i call it love,
the way he's screaming is making me blush,

i think we're gonna get married,
even though the restraining order says,
"don't come closer than 800 feet"

some call it stalking,
but i call it love,
that is what i feel now as i'm tieing him up,
some call it stalking,
but i call it love,
the way he's screaming is making me blush,

i think we're gonna get married,
even though the restraining order says,
"don't come closer than 800 feet"

i think we're gonna get married

it's 3am. can't sleep.
i'm listening to music on my computer.
i feel fat.
i need to go work out.
but to what dvd? i get sick of CKY IDR... haha that sounds like an licence plate.. hrrmm maybe i'll go with that CKY IDR sounds slightly less phsyco than BSPEARS, GWBUSH, BMARGRA or PTWENTZ. (i would only get those to see if i get followed. haha)

i.do.not.want.to.be.fat.for.the.fly.away.

"you are my fire, my one desire, believe when i say..."
Backstreet Boy's "i want it that way" just came up on itunes.. god the memories... 1999 seems a lifetime ago. and i guess it is. i wish i could go back, to the very day this song came out. If i could go back, with the knowledge of what my future would or could be...i could change everything, and make my life better.
"ain't nothing but a heart ache, ain't nothing but a mistake, i never wanna hear you say i want it that way".....
for the first time in my life, the lyrics to this song actually have meaning to me... which is hilarious being that this was my favorite song until i was about 12. sad i know.

I'm still feeling wierd over the fact that "love never wanted me". i'm seventeen. i've never been kissed. never been asked out on a date(creepy thugs on myspace asking "hottie can we hook up" do not count as ask outs... they only count as e-mail straight to the trash can)... is there something wrong with me. am i so unlovable?
yes i know i can be loud.
yes i know i can be a tomboy.
yes i know i can randomly act like i'm drunk or high, even though i'm sxe.
but really. what is it about me that no boy wants?

all.i.want.is.a.nice.emo.boy.with.clear.skin.and.no.criminal.record.from.a.nice.family. is that so much to ask for? obviously it is.

it probably hurts even worse because i did listen to the backstreet boys and nsync so much when i was younger. hearing all that stuff about how a guy is gonna sweep you off your feet and love you, some how brain washes you.

ashlee simpson is now on my itunes. she lip syncs, gets plastic sugery, and still gets a hot guy.

this is all my fault, going to wish Rio a happy birthday... it's fucked me up. Rio was the most unsociable kid. He had 0 friends when he was little. never seemed interested in anything. And he has a girlfriend, ect. But his friend Sydney..her asking me how old i was when i lost my virginity.. that fucking sucked. sure i shrugged it off with a joke answer "oh i'm saving myself for pete wentz"(i'm not...that would be psycotic and a clear path to dieing a virgin)...which got laughs..not laughing at you type, but the we're laughing with you type... but it sucked.

i need to go to a therapist...because this is obviously bothering me more than i'm letting myself know.

just.
one.
kiss.
would.
solve.
this.
whole.
problem.


GG Allin is now playing... Punk.Rock.For.REAL.