I'm Samantha and I love to skate. I also like to shake things up a bit

watch and listen,
to the girl who doesn't live,
the girl who fell down the steps,
to never get up again,
the girl who was pushed down,
with so arms out stretched,
to cushin her from the ground,
she quotes her favorite songs,
lines that she can apply to herself,
'love never wanted me' she quotes,
and that happiness doesn't appeal to her,
it's not her friend,
no one ever was,
no one ever will,
she dreams big,
her dreams kill her,
knowing she cannot will them,
watch and listen,
as she falls down the steps,
when her legs give out,
no arms out stretched,
to cushion her from the ground,
as she falls to her death,

i hate my life.
all i wanted was to be on stage.
but you can't do it alone.
and none of my friends play.
so i will never be there.
i suck at networking.
maybe i'm not driven enough.
i will always be here.
misserable.
sad.
crying in my corner.

YES OH YES OH YESS!!! I MADE IT ONTO THE LIST OF PEOPLE CHOSEN TO GO ON THIS YEARS OVER CAST KIDS FLYAWAY!!! wooot i get to go meet FOB in San Diego in July!!! wooot!


but i honestly doubt i'm going to go... for $700 or so i'd rather go to skate camp...

so today i had some awesome e-mail... Someone from Universal Music Group/Island Records e-mailed me asking if there were any bands i'd like to interview, and according to a UPS tracker e-mail Universal sent me a package(more cd's i'm guessing). I also got a reply e-mail from skater/singer Mike Vallely's pr person that RockstarBaby.net can interview him at Warped Tour! wootttttttt...

other than that today was pretty boring.. though i went to my bass/drum lessons...i couldn't do drums because the hip-hop people recording at the record studio were using the room that Justin (the drummer from Scary Kids Scaring Kids) gives me lessons in normally, to get a tattoo in....i played about half an hour of bass, but then i felt tired and didn't really feel like playing..lol. so i spent like half my lessons listening to my teacher, Justin play guitar.. haha.. his guitar playing is so fricken pretty.....
Justin told me my bass technique(sp?) is improving but i need to work more on playing with all my fingers(i hate using my pinky) and doing more updown picking.....i worked really hard on getting the plucking right and the timing correct on "Parker Lewis Can't Lose" by Fall Out Boy; that song is really good to practice with.


in other things, my new lip ring is fucking bugging me... since i have a bar in right now(the piercer said bars heal better than rings.. i intend to put in a black horned ring when it heals), the flat part of the bar keeps getting stuck on my gum and the outside keeps crusting over. ewww... and this morning is was really dry and wouldn't move.. ick.... i'm concidering taking it out.

i was feeling suicidal today, so i decided to go get another tattoo..but the guy who does my tattoos wasn't in, so i went and got my lip pierced on the left side. i got a round stud put in, but i plan on switching it to a black horned ring in a few weeks. i'm thinking of possibly getting the other side done too.

now on to tattoos.. it's probably a good thing i didn't get one done today... i know that i want to get "Hopelessly Hopeful" tattooed on my left wrist...but i don't want just plain text. i want something else to go with it and i want it in a cool font... so if anyone else has any ideas please let me know... because i want to get it done this week....

so die-an-uh and i are doing a photoshoot today.. new pix will be up.