I'm Samantha and I love to skate. I also like to shake things up a bit

my sleeping has been really fucked up again.. i've been so tired this past week.. and even though i've been up at night, i've been to tired to update my blog.. and to tired to finish Matt Deis's official web site...blah which is just lovely because i'm going to lose hit's on RockstarBaby.net, and i told Matt that the gallery on MattDeis.com would be up on saturday.
oh to heck with responsiblities..
last night i threatened suicide again, but came down off the ledge. my 4th attempt since december.
i came home, and watched "my so called life". i touched jared's hair at taste of chaos on sunday.. it was soft.. and bert and i had a "moment" of deep eye contact. i also met aiden for the 3rd time.
i then bought the new bright green $80 clan hoodie... and bid on an action figure. if i win the bid on the action figure, i will be completely broke for the next month. i can forget about going to see the gym class heroes concert.
i need a paying job.

i went to the mall to buy excessories today... after an hour or so of looking in Clairs, For Love and Hot Topic, i settled on some cute stuff at HT... i got tinkerbell hair clips, invader zim hair clips, and bow hair clips... i also got some really cute braceletts and necklaces that were really bright and girly.. haha i am so sick of being a tom boy... skate or die.. but dude i need to go shopping for cute stuff.

oh i am very pissed, because i paid around $30 for 2 day shipping on the $500 worth of stuff i bought from Clandestine Industries, and i ordered it on Tuesday... and it hadn't come yet.. According to my tracking thingie it's supposed to come tomorrow.. but that is THREE days.. and i ordered TWO days.. for like 5 dollars less i could have done 3day shipping... :-S hell when i bought Pete's book off that site and did the regular shipping it came in 3 or 4 days... soooo dude i should get my money back.