I'm Samantha and I love to skate. I also like to shake things up a bit

i'm quite bored, so i thought i'd make a list of every celebrity crush i've had since i was 8...in a pretty much chronological order.... people with asterisks (*) next to their name, i still think are hot.

1998

Leonardo Dicaprio* in Titanic


Nick Carter from BSB


Erik Von Detten from So Wierd (i miss that show so much)


Aaron Carter circa Aaron's Party era


Mark Hoppus* from Blink182


Justin Timberlake (i only liked him for about a month when that "rock your body" song was out)


Benji* & Joel Madden from Good Charlotte.....


50 Cent***** (i've always kind of lurved him since "in da club" came out... i just wouldn't admit it for a long time)


Prince Harry***** 3rd in line to the English crown


Billy Martin from Good Charlotte


David Derosier from Simple Plan


Bam Margera*** from mtv/skateboarder


Anderson Cooper********* from CNN


Ville Valo* from HIM


Johnny Knoxville from Jackass


Frank Iero* from My Chemical Romance


Pete Wentz******* from FOB


Chad Ginsburg from CKY


Adrian Grenier from Entourage


Rob Dyrdek from mtv/skateboarder


Kanye West


William Beckett* from The Academy Is

Travis Mccoy* from Gym Class Heroes


Ryan Sheckler**** from MTV/Skateboarder

Robert Pattinson** from Twilight


Ed Westwick/Chuck Bass**** from Gossip Girl

2009.

i think i may have forgot a few people....

Ok so tell me.. who was your first, and most recent celeb crushes...

My Birthday is less than a month away.. I've decided I don't want a party this year. I really want to go away for the weekend this year instead... i either want to go to Hollywood and stay at the Beverly Hills Hotel (though i think it's going to be booked since my birthday is the same day as the Grammys), and try to score some Grammy tix(blah its like $400 for nose bleeds) and go shop melrose & rodeo... or go to NYC , stay at the Palace(the hotel from GG), and go to a play/shopping...

I really doubt my rents will spring for either. I probably have more of a chance for a NY trip, though I highly doubt they would actually spring for staying in the city, since my grandma lives 30 minutes outside.

if the vaykay suggestions fail... what should i ask for?

1. No more junk food & ice cream
2. Work out & lose weight
3. No more buying band t's or cheap clothing
4. Only shop designer
5. Go to amazing concerts
6. Meet a really hot guy

So i've noticed i've pretty much quit/lost all interest in Skateboarding. It was a life style, i'm quite over that lifestyle.
I still love punk & emo music i just don't want to dress like it.
i've decided to adopt a more conservative fashion style.. from now on i'm only buying designer, no more hot topic or pac sun...and no more t-shirts... lord knows i've got half a closet worth of t-shirts(literally.. i actually have run out of space in my closet, and all of the drawers under my bed are full... i need to convince my mom to let me take over the hall coat closet)....
i really want to get my (teeth) veneers, but not so that my teeth will be whiter(i actually have extremely white teeth); i really want to get like permanent vampire fangs.lol.

that is all for now.


ps: i really hate the people at t-mobile. i pay $300+ for a sidekick, not to mention $80 a month for service.. they should send ME a replacement phone, before i have to send mine to them, if their stupid product breaks.... thank god shawna was able to figure out what was wrong with my phone (something the tmobile staff couldn't figure out after over an hour).

I rarely post blogs anymore.. blah.. so lets seeeeeeee....what is there to talk abootttt

i saw Twilight 3 times last week..that movie is so cheesy and lame thats it's awesome... i'm officially in lurv with robert pattinson... i totes plan on going to see Twilight again on saturday.....

Saturday i got dragged out to an amusement park... for the first time in my life I went on a Roller Coaster.. it had two loops and was about 4 stories above the ground.. thankfully the little girl sitting next to me told me that if tucked my head between my legs and closed my eyes, i wouldn't beable to tell when i was upside down... thankfully that did work, because as soon as the roller coaster started to go up the hill, i totally saw my life flash before my eyes.... I also went on this super fun ride(note my sarcasm) where you sit harnessed in with your feet dangling over the edge, that slowly takes you up 120 feet(my mom who used to be an architect told me that night that 120 feet is about equal to a 10 or 11 story building) and then drops you... i've always had a fear of heights...i get nervous dropping in on 6 foot half pipes, let alone free falling 120 feet.... i definatly faced some fears...
<---thats the ride, or at least a section of it the whole thing is too big to fit in one picture...
after that i had jesse & chelsea rescue me, and i had some interesting expierances on the west side... i'd really never been to the west side before (haha if your from the Phoenix Metro you know that the East Side and the West Side are like Beverly Hills to Compton).

Today was super boring... though all afternoon Diana and I kept texting back and forth random quotes from Twilight.. lmfao.. i rented Bam Margera's new movie "Where The Fuck Is Santa" (as well as "X-Files 2: I Want To Believe").... i've loved all of Bam's movies, but this new one effing sucks.. it has to be the worst movie i've ever seen..


This friday I'm taking Diana (dieanuh) to see Fall Out Boy, The Academy Is, Rihanna, Pussycat Dolls, and Tokio Hotel in honor of her Sweet 16..(everybody needs to go on her page on sunday and wish her happy bday).... haha this will be my 7th FOB show, 4th TAI show and 2nd Rihanna show.lmfao.

i've decided after putting it off for several years, that i'm going to make sometime this month, my epic skateboard "sponsor me" dvd. it's going to focus more on being a production than an actual sponsor me video.. as i feel i'm more of a personality, than xgames gold metal potential (though i'd like for nothing more in life than to compete in the womans vert comp someday)... but yes.. my biological clock is ticking, as i'm 2 months shy of 19.. and for skateboard sponsorships that may as well be 75.... (gish why can't we all be 17 forever like Edward Cullen?)..

well i'm off.. tata.
Xoxo,
Samantha Elise™

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note: on this shirt the white ink is actually glow in the dark.

I never watched that show when it was on... back in the 90's, when i was a kid, the commercials for it used to scare me... But this winter i started watching re-runs of it at like 3am on the Sci-Fi channel, and i love ittttt.. but i hate being up that late at night.. so i just started downloading season 1 on Itunes the other day.... now i'm like uber addicted..(though i hate both of the movies.. the new one was such a let down)
anyone else love the X-files?

So.. I was watching MTV this morning, and.... Dear MTV,
I "love" the supposide expert coaches, you have on your show MADE. I especially love the supposide female pro-skater that i've never heard of, that you have in your recent "make me a skater girl" episode. I love her awesome skate stances, such a squating while going straight, which 99.9% of people do standing up, unless they're getting in stance to preform a trick...I also love how she is so down with the correct skate lingo. When you roll off a ramp, that is NOT a drop in. Dropping in is a specific motion you do on the edge of coping, not when you roll down an incline, as she seems to think. Also there is no such place as the "Kettering Skate Plaza", it's called the "DC/Rob Dyrdek Skate Plaza". And contrary to your supposide female pro-skaters beliefs there is no where to practice dropping in at the DC/Dyrdek skate plaza, as it is a (the worlds first, and is famous for this) strictly STREET skate park... Dropping in is not a part of street skating, nor are there any ramps with coping or vert aspects to that park.
It's nice to see MTV being super authentic, and having competent people teach unathletic teens dangerous sports. I especially enjoyed the part where the female pro-skater said she didn't want to see the girl cry unless she broke a bone. It was also lovely to see the girl skating in short shorts, and crying when she skinned herself.
And lastly... Thanks for reeling me in to watching this show by showing clips of actual competent and qualified pro-skaters at the begining of the show.

thus ends my rant.. on how "lovely" MTV shows are...
Best Wishes,
-Sammi

ps: I wrote that rant half way throught the show... after writing it, there was a part where the "female pro-skater" started screaming abusively at the girl about how she wasn't trying hard enough. 0____0 the poor girl could barely stand on a board, let alone was not in the position to be learning trick..It's so irresponsible as it is extremely easy to get extremely hurt skating. I ended up not watching the whole episode, it was so irritating... the only non-offensive part of the episode was the like two seconds of Rob Dyrdek giving the girl props for trying to learn to skate... Though the fact that they had to show one of the most over exposed, over commercialised, and somewhat overrated(though he is amazing), skaters is really annoying.... Why couldn't the girl be getting words of wisdom from Paul Rodreigez or Terry Kennedy.. But no, she has to get them from someone famous for owning a minature horse on a tv show. X_x Oh and at the end of the show, the girl went to skate at the Boom Boom Huck Jam (i didn't watch that part).. but real swift.. You have the girl learning in the worlds only STREET park, and then you go send her to a VERT demo.... real great, as they're totally different techniques.


MTV seriously angers me.... lmfao though prior to MADE coming on, this reality dating show was on, and the chick on it used to be my manager when i worked at Hollister for a week last year. 0__________________0 twas wierd.

This isn't a recent though..Nor does it directly have anything to do with Tiger Beat...and will more than likely be miss interpreted; like a lot of things I say.


Have you ever found yourself watching someone from a hundred feet away. Their back turned to you. No clue you exist. It's times like these you realize your real place in the world. How insignificant and truely only self important you are. But mostly you realize how stupid you are. To put people on pedestals, just for their image. You'll feel stupid anytime you open iPhoto, and see the twenty-nine blurry photos of the back of their head. I am far to old for idol worship. I have retired. One day you grow up and really truely realize, that these people are no better or any more interesting than you. They don't desserve your adoration or attention.
i've. grown. up.

Do we all play a game?
put on a happy face?
tell everyone we're having a good time?
do we all do what's expected of us?
even if that is not playing by the rules?
to fit the part that people ask of us?
am i the only person who's only fun that comes from going to a party, is just sitting back sober and watching what everyone else is doing?
is that all i do? sit back and watch.
watch as everyone lives their life.
my mom says its unhealthy to be out until 4am... like everyone here seems to do, and i've only done maybe 3 times.
But i have to ask in response, "i have insomnia, is it anymore healthier being up at 4am watching rob & big dvds?".
is their honestly any point in being a "good" person, when there is no happiness in it?
i just want to feel a part of something.
something bigger than me.
or just fit in with everyone else my age.
but i feel so alone.
so isolated.
some(most)times i feel as if i'm going to be alone forever.
watching other people live.
and maybe thats better.
alone.

my skater friends.... i always take them for granted.. and rarely do anything with them outside of skating.. but with my skate park peeps, i have a huge group of people who i've known since i was 15.. and in Scottsdale, knowing someone and staying friends with them, is a LONG time, let alone 3 years.
so anyway. yeah AJ IM'd me late this afternoon and was like "come to the skate park".. so i took a shower (at like 6 something pm), and left my house around 7.. i skated from my house to the skate park..which is pretty far.. and i couldn't catch a bus.. so it took me about 45 mins to get there. and i was pretty effing scared because once i got past old town the streets became very dark and i had to pass a mental hospital....i've never skated there after dark. haha.. The Wedge is located in the most dangerous part of Scottsdale; people have been kniffed and held at gun point there.. haha...
Anyway... I got to the Wedge around 8pm.. i went and got dinner accross the street with AJ and two other kids from the park... On the way to dinner, AJ and I discussed the fact that he thinks i'm going to become famous.. And we decided that when i become famous, and buy 3 layers of heaven, he's and some other skate park peeps are gonna come crash there and if i want ice cream at 3am, he'll get up and get it for me. "lmfao. haha scarily enough, i could so see that happening.
After dinner, AJ was doing like skate boot camp with me... and got me to nailing backside smith grinds perfectly.lol.. So now i've got my 50/50's, Back Smith's, and Axel Stalls down on the mini ramp.
AJ was gonna teach me feebles, but the lights at the park turned out, which meant it was 10:30, which is closing time.. and no one wants to mess with the Scottsdale PD.. they will arrest yo ass for skating... well at least in civic center they will, and seriously who wants to mess with the 5-0?

until next time.. or something

xoxo,
Samantha

last night i went skating, i saw brando and aj, who i've been skating with since i was 15. It was good to see them, cuz i hadn't seen AJ since April, and I probably haven't seen Brando since last summer. I missed those kids.
The "pigs" and parks & rec peeps, were out in full force. On cars and bikes. It's kind of unsettling.
When i got home I watched "The Rocky Horror Picture Show". It was better than I remembered it being, but it's still wierd as fuck

i feel kind of good this morning. or afternoon. I woke up half and hour ago and ate a cresant. i've been watching mtv jamz. i forgot how awesome and how many good songs Jay-Z has. They're playing Biggie Smalls right now(he was actually pretty good), it's kind freaky cuz his cd was called "ready to die", what was up with him and 2pac predicting their deaths? anyway.... god i love 90's rap. i seriously DO NOT like rap in general. I just like 90's rap, and about 3 current artists. Late 90's rap videos seem to have the best pool parties; they looks like so much fun.

I've been singing again. I'm meeting with my old singing teachers soon. I need 3 accapella songs for something.. suggestions? i'm thinking of singing "friday i'm in love" by the cure.

hahaha the house from "rob & big" is up for rent. i wish i had $6000 grand a month. i. want. that. house. haha. i swear if i ever make a lot of money i'm gonna buy that house.... or at least a modern style house in the hollywood knolls/hills.... i llloooovvvvveeeee modern architecture.

i feel so bored. i don't really have a whole lot to do on a daily basis right now, because i can't find a job, and my dad gave my mom my allowance for her to control(WTF i'm 18) while he's out of the country.. so i have absolutely no money to go to the mall and spend.

i'm done, imma shut up now.

i'm meeting with a photographer tomorrow about getting pictures done up, since i really need pro pix to get more modeling gigs.. anyway.. does anyone have any ideas for photoshoot themes?

when you've give up all hope on something. and now you have a real chance at it?

i flew into Phx yesterday afternoon.. And now i'm flying to the O.C., so I can catch day 3 of the Maloof Money Cup tomorrow... Wish me luck on meeting all my favorite skaters, and taking good pix of the event.

buy me this house: http://www.redfin.com/CA/LOS-ANGELES/3230-N-KNOLL-Dr-90068/home/7129090

i can't believe my dream house (aka the rob & big house) is up for sale... i wonder if the Gun Show wall paper is still up in the pool room (the back yard wall & pool murals appear to have been painted over)...... damn i wish i had 1.7m.... imma go play the lottery when i get back to AZ. haha.

50 Cent's official site. haha.. they like never feature pix on there.. and all the other featured pix are from his profile.



0_0 LMFAO some girl left a comment saying: "u 2 are fuckin hot together !! lol"

It's not that I don't like going on vacation. It's just that maybe, even though i've sworn to hate it, part o me actually really likes Scottsdale? I don't go home until Thursday or Friday (we may change the flight), but I want to go home now.

The Run Down:
Last Thursday(june 26th): Flew to Saddle River, NJ... stayed at my grandma's.

Last Saturday(june 30th): Went to my cousin's wedding in PA.. i had a nice time.. I hadn't seen any of my cousin's in over 5 years.. It was really great to reconnect... Drove back up to my grandma's house in Saddle River, NJ that night)

Last Sunday: I met that kid jo.jo from that "Run's House" tv show. I went to go say hi to my friend David, and jo.jo happened to be over at his house.. very awkward, as i pretended not to know who he was.

Tuesday(July 1st): G-Unit..............I went out first thing in the morning to Boarders to buy the new G-Unit cd. I spent 3 hours curling my hair for the concert. Put on my pink silk Betsy Johnson dress and black Linea Paolo 5 inch heals. around 5:30 the town car came to pick us(my mom and i) up to drive into the city. When we got to Time Square the line for the concert was circling the whole entire MTV/Viacom building.... I went to the box office to pick up my $300 VIP tickets. The company that the VIP tickets are thru, fucked up and forgot to drop off the VIP tix.. there were a lot of angry people because of this. We waited like two hours until they finally delivered them. By then most of the people who'd only paid $50 were inside.. forget getting a nice spot in the standing room. The Nokia theater is really freaky.. It's located about two stories underground, right under TRL. and it looks like inside of a night club. The crowd was REALLY REALLY scary and ghetto.. all these ghetto girls were getting into cat fights and screaming at each other "you mother fucking bitch"... i had guys trying to reach up my dress, squeezing my butt, and putting their arms around me.. i was really scared i was going to get raped. Some guy jumped on stage and fucked around with DJ Clu's (the opening act) computer, and security had to grab him. By the time G-Unit came on, I wanted to leave. It was really really hot in the theater(like no air conditioning what so ever).. I ended up going in and out of the lobby most of the time. During one of the songs, some girl apparently tried to pull 50 Cent down, because he kind of stopped and yelled at her and was like "you tried to pull me into the crowd".... Yeah the whole show was kind of a train wreck. The only thing i enjoyed at that concert was hearing "I Get Money" and "Disco Inferno", and getting to hug 50 Cent.
I have a completely different outlook on Black American culture after this concert. I had been really trying to embrace my black side. But honestly i'm frightened of it now. I will NEVER go to another concert in New York city.. And i think i'm not going to be leary of rap concerts... though in Arizona the 4 rap shows i've been to there, were really tame.
G-Unit live in NYC = kind of tramatizing.

Thursday: drove down to the jersey shore.. to Stone Harbor. I was kind of bummed, because 50 Cent did a show in Atlantic City, thursday night.. which is 15 mins from Stone Harbor, but the show was 21+, so i couldn't go... (don't you love how i'm all tramatized from his show in NYC, yet a very impulsive part of me would still go to another one of his concerts)...

So anyway i've been at the beach since Thursday. It's really nice here. But i'm bored as hell. I'm not really out going enough to like chat with people at the pool or the beach. So i feel lonely. And theres no where to really go shopping, well at least not clothes i'd want to buy. I miss the mall. The only things i've bought since i've been away are: a 50 cent 2008 tour shirt at the concert, and skateboard pads.. because Stone Harbor passed a law last year that pads & helmets are manditory in their skate parks... and they totally inforce it. some kid in his 20's went to go skating on Friday, and the police threatened to ticket him. WTF?

I miss home.

Though i'm def' heading back to Phoenix/Scottsdale at the end of the week. I may be making a trek directly over to Orange County, to go watch The Maloof Money Cup skateboard competition.. Rob Dyrdek, Sheckler, Danny Way, P-Rob, Steve Berra, Christian Hosoi, and a bunch of other skating a-listers are going to be competing.


X0xo,
it's $amantha, bitch.

Rio & I had a great time at Warped Tour today... We interviewed so many amazing bands, and I bumped into Bree (breesays) from Buzznet. fun times.

i'm gonna keep this short, because i need to go to bed, since i've got to be up at 6am, since the limosien(how ever the heck you spell it), is coming at like 8am.

love ya.

one day until warped tour. i'm really not in the mood to go this year. i would send someone else out to do the interviews and photographs, but the two passes are in my name, so i'd have to trek an hour to the other side of the metro, to retrieve them from will call... thus i might as well attend the show.
the next day i leave for new york city/new jersey. i'm all packed. i can't believe i was able to pack everything i need into 4 bags.
I've got some seriously cute clothes for this trip that i can't wait to wear....

I got this Juicy Couture dress to wear to my cousin's wedding. (haha i'm too lazy to take a pic in it, so here's google image of it)


I got this Betsey Johnson dress to wear to 50 Cent/G-Unit's cd release show...

i got a really killer pair of black satin Linea Paolo heals to wear with it...i'd take a pic of them, but they're already packed...

and i got this: http://www.EdHardyShop.com/Halter-Swimsuit-Love-Kills-Slowly-in-Baby-Blue-p/f146-f147_edw001a.htm
Ed Hardy bathing suit, but mine is the white version(they have the baby blue one in that pic).... to wear to the beach....

I can't wait to go away.. but i'm stressed out about it.